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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Caoimhe hears the whispers - b u t . . . At this point with how insane this realm is, she doesn't think too much about it, holding a weariness of walking into the night. Yet sad and lonely - desperate even. To search for him, and find him she does.

At least - we think so, she rounds the corner to where the Fish Tank in Elswords house is and looks around to find him. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's hard to stay so sad when Mizuki is full of life!! Despite the evident aura she gives, and the seemingly dejected look she has. It softens the moment she sees Mizuki climb out of his fish tank.

It almost makes her want to diminish her issues into nothingness, the complicity of it should not be brought and put on others' shoulders. She already bothered Heimr, the Shopkeeper and upset him... She should not continue that train of action. ]


I... I am sorry... The spell I use can only send back and forth about twenty-five words. Did I bother your time in the waters?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
No its alright... [ Caoimhe begins but, ] Would you join me for company?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She is all wet and with a quick movement of her hands she uses prestidigitation to make herself dry again. She does not offer to Mizuki because she knows him being wet is important! ]

I do not want to bother you with my thoughts, I already caused a great bit of grief to Heimr when I just spoke to him now... I just...

[ A Pause. ]

I missed the ocean... And... I did not know where to go to, but to you.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Even so, when I thought of it - it was you who came to mind first. [ She admits a bit sheepishly, hands rubbing along either side of her forearms. ] ... I see...

Even still... It isn't right to just, speak my pains freely.. [ Locks of hair shuffle about, ] Not that I do not want to.

[ She looks up, staring towards him a bit more clearly. ]

. . . Remember... You had told me, that I am a Good Person?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh that was very good! She sits on the couch and finds it easier to... Well breathe, and her nerves begin to settle just a bit. ]

I think about that day a lot... Everything we talked about... I... I try really hard to be myself and to be what it means to be good to me... But... I think.... I think it is only making other people unhappy, and... Maybe misunderstand me? Or... That I will make it worse?

[ A pause and... She reflects the earnestly says. ]

... I wanted to go back to the ocean, because... If that is where I came from, then I want to return home. [ She gets quieter, the comfort of sitting and the safety of being in this place with her friend Mizuki beside her. Knowing too, that Elsword was not too far away. She opens up a bit more... ] ... I don't think I belong anywhere... Not even here... So I want to go back home... I want to go back to the ocean, where I came from, and where I belong... Since... The way that I am - the way that I am, is not... The right way to be?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Actually Mizuki that is sound advice, and very smart point. Caoimhe herself is not use to the idea that people would care about her in that way - which was a dynamic issue. Her people faulted her in failing them, and although still accounted her among them. Made it evident in their actions that she was on her own, when it came to care and a quality of life.

Thinking that people are so concerned about her - that they are fearful of how she is being taken advantage of by others?

She genuinely, cannot fathom that idea.

It's too bad this came too late - if anything it's almost narratively hilarious. ]


... I did not realize. . . [ A pause as she drifts into thought but the hand squeeze brings her in. Eyes flicker upwards back to him, and the oceans within them seem to subside from the initial flurry of storms that bellowed within.

'What is the harm in staying here anyway?'

If Caoimhe is so adamant about believing everyone belongs, why does she not add herself into the picture?. Her life answers that question, but she is incapable of answering it right now in her mind for Mizuki. Instead, she simply thinks - ]


I am still trying to understand...

[ I think you belong. She smiles, and deep down she feels herself validated. Truly, the ocean welcomes her. ]

Thank you.

[ She squeezes his hands back. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-28 07:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Caoimhe listens intently to every word the other says but finds herself a bit lost in the modernization and suddenness of how he speaks. ]

Y-Yes you always do... You truly have so much vast knowledge.. You must pay attention to other people around you a lot.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-28 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She drops it. ]

Mmm, that makes sense. [ A pause, thinking on what the other said. ] I know many people who do this, but I myself enjoy it as well... Even if at times, the distance between us can be.. So vast.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-10-02 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ BC MIZUKI!! U CANT BE IDENTICAL TWINS IF NOT SAME GENDER NSJDKFNJDSFNDSBNFKDS unless... Maybe they were... maybe osmosis jones happen. or whatever. LMSDJFKSDLFGKS ]

Yes! That's exactly it! [ Caoimhe seems to flinch at his realization, ] When... Um...

There is this book that exists, it - - it is where my name came from.

[ She moves to find the bag of holding and searches for the book. Sure enough she finds it, pulling it out with its hard red cover. As she takes it into her hands, cradling the book itself she gently opens it. ]

It's a story about a girl, who... Who lived in a city where everyone is beautiful, and everyone is good at one thing? It does not what that one thing is, but they excel at it and have purpose because of it. [ She filters through the pages as she speaks looking for something within it urgently. ] Then this girl was born. She was simply not good at any one particular thing, and she did not look so fetching. The girl was often treated so poorly, and no one loved her whatsoever.

The book is about a God watching over this girl, and commenting on how it is she lives - how it is she becomes. Ultimately the God decides it wants to grant the girl a wish, and when it asks her what they wish for. The God says, "I have watched you be hated and reviled, for no reason other than existing. I want to give you a gift, I can change everything about the city, everything about the world, even change you to be loved and revered. What do you want the most, tell me?"

The girl simply said, "I want to just live here, I don't want to change at all. I love looking down at everyone, I love seeing them happy and I love how hard they strive to be what they are. Me being here, drives them. It shows them what they don't want to be, and for that, I am truly precious to them. Even if they do not know it. I just want to be, Caoimhe."

[ As she turns the book over to Mizuki, the illustration is presented across two pages. Drawn with ink and hard printed with some bold colors to pop. There is a girl that overlooks a city, the city is beautifully built. With lights that glimmer, and floating vehicles that whirl around. Then you have Caoimhe in the picture book, staring off from a hill out into the beautiful city. Where the God shown before her as a small sparkling flower, stands within her hands and seems to be giving of a powerful energy that encompasses them both. The image itself looks more intricate, as the border around it almost looks as if it is a mirror. As if, you are the third party watching over them. Where, the God is watching over Caoimhe. Where Caoimhe is Watching over the City. ]

Caragh... Gave me the name of Caoimhe, from this book... I... When I read it recently, I realized to myself that this is how I felt... Like Caoimhe watching over the city, or the God watching over Caoimhe, or... Myself as I read about each of them through this text. [ She looks at the image lowering it to her lap. ] Because of this... its hard for me to not understand the feelings of others... I understand too much - - ...

Even if they have done so much wrong, because for me... It's like I watch them too from a mirror or a window, where all their actions have meaning, and it's never about one thing...

[ A frown... It almost seems like she... Didn't make sense at all. ]

I am.. Sorry... Did that make sense?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-10-03 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And thats the interesting thing here about things like this -

It's so funny how one word, down changes introspection and the meaning of all things. To Caoimhe, it literally meant downwards - and stopped there. To look and see from another perspective, it had nothing negative in connotation to it. When she spoke it openly. That this word, downwards, meant nothing, because it was a direction simply. To Mizuki however, it meant everything, because it meant there were things beneath one another.

Therein lies the half cup, and cup half full predicament, told yet in another form and of another topic incidentally. ]


...

[ She sees him, perhaps finally after being here for so long, hearing him talk so much - though the truth was ever hard to find at times. It took her this long because he hides his words craftily afraid that the way he speaks, will deign him something lesser than that of which good really is. ]

You worked really hard didn't you? [ Caoimhe speaks softly, her arms already wrapped around his shoulders leaning against him to give him the most gentlest hug. ] To get where you are now, [ She nuzzles him just a little. ] to feel how you do here, [ And a even kinder back rub. ] and to keep going into the unknown.

[ Once, she told a man, who told her that he was the foulest little thing. Caoimhe, most grateful for his kindness, told him that a man who tries his best to be kind for the world around him. Knowing how capable he was of destroying it, hurting others, or breaking the world around him all within a moment. Was far greater a man, than one who acts kindly, because it is the right thing to do.

Stumped and bewildered by this woman's phrasing, he then tracked halfway across the continent. Realizing, and afraid he would lose the one person who saw the efforts he put into the world. It is a horrifying thing to be seen, in the abyss of humanity after all. ]


I think. [ She says sweetly, ] Someone who understands all that, [ Meaning everything that Mizuki said. ] is as Good as anyone person can be.

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