[ All she heard was: i cleanse the souls of the dying when i eat them. ]
... I... I don't think I can watch - ultimately, the body of a living being is so holy - in itself. Even if they... Die.. ... To watch it desecrated in that way is still hurtful despite your ability...
[ Though the more she thinks about it... ]
... Does that mean... Youre a God?
[ I cant remember if she asked this before - Caoimhe would remember BUT ME THE MUN? GON GAGA. ]
I understand. I don't want you to be uncomfortable. I'm real sorry I scared you before, I hope you'll forgive me for that.
[ Sounds like she already has, of course, but he doesn't want to assume anything. Maybe she came to apologize and also be like "but fuck you for doing that you little bitch" or something like that.
Her next question stumps him a little bit, though. The answer should be "Of course not". And, to some extent, it is, to Mizuki. (But there's a lot of intricacies to We Many, isn't there?) No, no, he can't talk about that. Ah, he's better off just avoiding answering altogether. He doesn't want to continue lying to Caoimhe. ]
..Sometimes, we scare each other. [ Her arms shift gently around his shoulders. Leaning into give him a hug before pulling back again, and letting the two of them comfortably drift a part. ] Sometimes, we get angry at one another... And that's okay, because we all have feelings and... We can come together, to talk about them or overcome things that may not.. Make sense to us?
[ At least in regards to this moment. A pause, as she is hesitant to answer his question. ]
... Do you not..? [ Mizuki may not give his feelings away physically, but in the intricacies of his own personality. Caoimhe finds perhaps her question weighed uncomfortably on his shoulders. ] Do you not, like that question?
You're very kind, Caoimhe. [ He's going to thumb at some of the tearstains on her cheeks. ] Next time, you needn't cry for me, though. I promise, no matter what, I'll always consider you my friend, okay? Worrying otherwise will just make you emotionally exhausted!
[ And he's going to hold her hands now. He's very touchy - if he can't keep hugging, then this works for him. ]
I wouldn't say that, no. It's just certainly a weird question to ask, isn't it~? I mean, depending on what your definition of "godhood" is, maybe we all are? We can't technically "die", we have different abilities, we're from different worlds, we've been reincarnated as entirely new people - there's so much there that could be traits of godhood.
... Thank you Mizuki. [ Truly a kind friend, what more could she have asked for? The gentleness of his touch, wiping away the tears makes her feel validated - here, grounded, alive, appreciated, loved. A tenderness she wasn't inherently always afforded, especially with how easily she could cry.
But Gods..? ]
No, [ She says, kindly but there is a push of certainty to her voice now. ] A God is nothing like us.. Yet you are right, we can become Gods. I have heard legends of those who even Ao could not overlook and granted them ascension... But...
[ As she speaks trying to recall memories and thinks hard on it, the lyre at her side begins to glitten slightly. Exuding an aura of magic itself. ]
Gods have these things called Portfolios.. Yes, without them, the Gods would not gain power from our prayers or respect. Instead, they would diminish in power, and likely disappear into the aetherial planes... I suppose that does not answer your question.
[ She had looked away in thought but returned her eyes towards the other more endearingly once more. ]
To me, the Gods whether they are foul-mannered or gracious. Are beings who live beyond our understanding, they are not meant to be understood but all the same - worshiped and learned from. They are our creators and may not understand us as mortals, but rely on us all the same as we too look to them for answers.
We are the essence of what it means to be synergetic, a foul God should be stopped but to destroyed!?!? Outright, would only mean the demise of Mortalkind.
[ She shakes her head frowning, ]
I merely mean, to myself. Gods are above me, and I can only exist below them ultimately.
Hmm~ hmmmm!!! What a very specific explanation. But I don't think even Gods can be bound by definitions, can they?
[ Happily, he swings their hands together, and sways a little in his spot as well. Mizuki may have been raised by cultists in a Church, but he's really not a religious person. He believes in what the Arbor stands for, and what it once provided and did, but there are some... complicated feelings there. There's some complicated feelings for We Many. There's a lot of... jumbled, complicated... stuff. ]
If the Gods created creatures, then are those creatures not also God? They must be pieces of them, at least, surely? I believe there are simply people who earn respect and even prayer, but those people are not necessarily good, or even gods, right? So, then, where is the divide?
If Gods are simply something we cannot understand, then are many, many Gods that differ between people, even. For instance, I don't understand emotions all that well. Does that make it my God~?
[ Before she has the chance to answer, Mizuki lets go of one of her hands and pulls the other up, guiding her into a little twirl before giving a bright, sunny laugh. ] I don't think anyone can truly define divinity.
Oh you know this..? [ Caoimhe's face lights up as their hands swing about, the lyre at her side still ebbing a hue of magic to it. ] Yes... Yes you are right - Ao took themself and placed a part of them into each one of us, that is why...
[ As swift as she seemed to smile, she frowns gently. ]
That is why the Beast, takes our souls and consumes it - making certain we are never reborn again. He wants the small parts of Ao within us, so that he can become stronger then he is... [ Yes she will talk about the facts of her world like it is nothing, she has done this in the campaign its a thing. ]
But ah -
[ she twirls a bit mystified, did he want to dance? Caoimhe had not danced for some time, and the movement of her twirl made her feel balanced in some way. When she enters back before him. She looks at either side of him and gently comes close and moves a bit as if to dance. ]
That is what I mean... But we, as living beings... We are defined, and part of that is by the Gods in some way...
While the Gods are divided mainly by the power in their hands, but also the laws of the cosmos that we know nothing of... And maybe just, will never understand... Yes... I think that's okay...
I also think that. [ A small smile. ] If Mizuki is a God, he would be a Great God. A kindest one, yes! I would hope your people will dance to the ocean waves, sing your songs, and represent the strength that is in your heart.
[ LMAO thats totally fine. She is with the help of Mizuki, actually remembering things from the her that lived farther than she came from. Though she may not be able to retain that Caoimhe's ability or power... She is remembering some of those memories. He is helping, without realizing it. ]
Mm! That's okay - I-I am most endeared by it... [ It is a quiet gentle dance, Caoimhe feels the moment deeply. ] I love who you are, simply as you are, that is why I was so sad... To have felt scared of you before.
I felt that I betrayed you, Mizuki... Despite how much I love you. [ She leans in a bit closer, at least despite the tears that still seemed to sit on her cheeks from moments before. Caoimhe is able to smile truly for the other. ] Thank you for understanding me, and being so kind... Always... I am happy to have met you, am happy that Mizuki is just Mizuki.
[ Mizuki's movements are fluid and very loose. Almost... impossible, for someone without the structure of a jellyfish. But he keeps dancing! It's fun, and he doesn't want to see her cry, and it's certainly a nice contrast from this topic. ]
Mmh, I'm glad Caoimhe is Caoimhe, too. I think... [ A rumbling in his head, the whispers of the collective, the thoughts of We Many, the voice he can never discern from his own. ] I think the Gods are overrated, anyway.
Mm... [ She is grateful. ] I love the Gods. [ Caoimhe says gently, finding herself fascinated by his fluid movements. She almost starts to purposely try to move them so she can see them for herself. ] But I love all living things the most.
[ Somewhere her mother's own heart cries, knowing her daughter is so much like her. ]
[ Caoimhe cants her head, a bit perturbed. We? She feels she made him sad... After a moment, the two continue and then she softly says. ]
... Mizuki, I.. I wanted to show you something... I am not sure how the spell will work, but... I would be comfortable if you were here with me while I cast it... Do you want to see?
[ He has a lot of feelings about Gods. Hard not to, when there’s some in your head. He feels especially bad for the ones who were wronged. He feels especially bad for the Arbor. ]
Of course. [ But now isn’t the time to think about that. He’s back to his infinite cheer. ] What is it?
Um... Is there somewhere with more open space... Could we go outside for a bit..? [ Caoimhe stops their little dance and squeezes his hands, to move a way a bit. Pulling out her new lyre and holding it in each of her hands. ]
[ Oh! Okay. No more dancing. That's fine. He'll just nod and start to head for the door. He seems equal parts curious and excited, honestly. Magic? More magic?? He'd like to see. He still doesn't understand how it works, but- ]
[ Caoimhe notices that he seems to fall in a more chipper mood. Almost instantly at that, she wipes the last of her tears off her face and gives a final sniffle. Her nerves taxing on one hand, but finding comfort with her friend and wanting to show them something potentially new... She pushes onwards and clamors outside with him until she finds a spot where it is open and wont potentially hurt anything. ]
okay...
[ Caoimhe holds the harp in her hand, and with a manifestation within her chest. Imagines it far larger, it transforms in her hand into a lap harp now and sits against her hip. ]
I-If... If it goes bad... Could you - - ? Make sure to help fight with me?
I am unsure... But... [ With resolve in her voice, she begins to play a tune on the harp. The strings delicately play, making the most crystal clear sound ever a harp can make. ] I know... It will help you.
[ Each stroke of the string, reverberates into the air, and the beautiful tune played is that of a gentle summer song. With each cord played a warm wind passes by them but it is cool to the touch as if it were to rain at any moment. When her eyes shut she seems to imbue magic alongside her harp, and within a matter of moments. What Mizuki will see is the form of a raindrop small in size and quality - become suddenly large. Collecting water from nowhere in particular but within itself -
It reaches about 10ft in diameter and bubbles itself before them both. A whole bubble of water. It seems to bounce about buoyant in its conception, and whirl in circles on the spot. It has no eyes and takes no shape currently but what Mizuki hears right after is the sound of some deranged gurgling akin to the rumble of ocean waves, or something inherently inhuman. ]
Eh? Eh? Where am I? What am I doing here? [ It speaks Primordial, and echoes these words to no one in particular. ]
[ Caoimhe stops her music playing and seems rather excited suddenly!! ]
OH! It worked!!! It worked!! H-Hello! Mizuki!! Look!!!!
Mizuki has absolutely no idea what's going on, but Caoimhe said "help fight" just moments before, so... Mizuki is absolutely chucking his harpoon-umbrella at this thing. Especially after it gurgles like that. No, no, no, no, nu-uh, not here, not now. ]
W-Wait stop!! [ Caoimhe attempts to step into the fray though the poor bubble was already hit by the Umbrella. It churns its body, having been hit very hard, and seems to start quivering fearful of what had just happened. ]
Attack? Attack? Attack? Attack? No? No? Why did they attack? I just got here. I should attack... [ Gurgle gurgle... ]
[ Caoimhe has, unfortunately, been subjected to Mizuki's nat1 made the mistake of not really explaining to Mizuki what she intends to do. Moreover, has told him to prepare for a fight, which already had him on the offensive. Maybe it's that sort of negative combination, then, that sets off something inside of Mizuki? He doesn't immediately pounce on the creature or anything like that since he will heed Caoimhe's request for now, but just his posture makes it abundantly clear that he is unhappy. ]
What is that? Why can't We feel it...? What did you do? [ It speaks in a tongue native to the Seaborn, yet They are making him bristle at the sound. Perhaps because communication and thought in his language is often also accompanied through other means in the hivemind? ] ...We don't like it, Caoimhe.
[ Caoimhe looks over to the Elemental and seems to apologize to it profusely. She clasps her hands together and with a break in her concentrates on the weave. The elemental disperses and the water from whence it came from lessense until it finally diminishes entirely.
Once it is gone, she is hesitant but looks toward Mizuki with nothing but concern for him and his wellbeing. ]
I-It is an elemental - o-on my realm... It is powerful magic, I met one before in my travels but only once and heard of their powers through old text but... I did not think I would be able to summon one myself until I started to work more and more with this Harp I acquired.
[ Caoimhe turns the Harp into a Lyre and shows it to the other. ]
D-Do you need me to do anything, I am so sorry. I was hopeful that.. The water Elemental would help you with your issues in needing to be in water so much. I am so sorry, I did not think it would turn out to be so - - horrifying an experience. T-Tell me what I can do to help!
[ Mizuki should be fine with this, but he is shaking. Not because of what happened, but rather the very loud, angry waves in his head. For the most part, they stay internal, but Caoimhe gets the smallest taste of We Many as Mizuki speaks. ]
Abomination. We should've... No, no you're overreacting. It's fine. Is this really important to you?
[ ... ]
Ah- it's alright, Caoimhe, you didn't do anything wrong, We just misunderstood your intentions. Sorry. Were you startled?
No.. No.. [ She shakes her head, thinking the comments were a bit confusing to follow but she pushes with an overarching acceptance of it. ]
I... No it's... I did not want you to hurt it because... If you did then it may have surely, turned on us both. [ Thankfully its SUMMON elemental and not CONJURE elemental. ] I am just glad no one was hurt, I am so sorry Mizuki...
[ She comes closer hoping to help offer her hands or body to lean on. ]
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... I... I don't think I can watch - ultimately, the body of a living being is so holy - in itself. Even if they... Die.. ... To watch it desecrated in that way is still hurtful despite your ability...
[ Though the more she thinks about it... ]
... Does that mean... Youre a God?
[ I cant remember if she asked this before - Caoimhe would remember BUT ME THE MUN? GON GAGA. ]
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[ Sounds like she already has, of course, but he doesn't want to assume anything. Maybe she came to apologize and also be like "but fuck you for doing that you little bitch" or something like that.
Her next question stumps him a little bit, though. The answer should be "Of course not". And, to some extent, it is, to Mizuki. (But there's a lot of intricacies to We Many, isn't there?) No, no, he can't talk about that. Ah, he's better off just avoiding answering altogether. He doesn't want to continue lying to Caoimhe. ]
What's a god to you, Caoimhe?
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[ At least in regards to this moment. A pause, as she is hesitant to answer his question. ]
... Do you not..? [ Mizuki may not give his feelings away physically, but in the intricacies of his own personality. Caoimhe finds perhaps her question weighed uncomfortably on his shoulders. ] Do you not, like that question?
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[ And he's going to hold her hands now. He's very touchy - if he can't keep hugging, then this works for him. ]
I wouldn't say that, no. It's just certainly a weird question to ask, isn't it~? I mean, depending on what your definition of "godhood" is, maybe we all are? We can't technically "die", we have different abilities, we're from different worlds, we've been reincarnated as entirely new people - there's so much there that could be traits of godhood.
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But Gods..? ]
No, [ She says, kindly but there is a push of certainty to her voice now. ] A God is nothing like us.. Yet you are right, we can become Gods. I have heard legends of those who even Ao could not overlook and granted them ascension... But...
[ As she speaks trying to recall memories and thinks hard on it, the lyre at her side begins to glitten slightly. Exuding an aura of magic itself. ]
Gods have these things called Portfolios.. Yes, without them, the Gods would not gain power from our prayers or respect. Instead, they would diminish in power, and likely disappear into the aetherial planes... I suppose that does not answer your question.
[ She had looked away in thought but returned her eyes towards the other more endearingly once more. ]
To me, the Gods whether they are foul-mannered or gracious. Are beings who live beyond our understanding, they are not meant to be understood but all the same - worshiped and learned from. They are our creators and may not understand us as mortals, but rely on us all the same as we too look to them for answers.
We are the essence of what it means to be synergetic, a foul God should be stopped but to destroyed!?!? Outright, would only mean the demise of Mortalkind.
[ She shakes her head frowning, ]
I merely mean, to myself. Gods are above me, and I can only exist below them ultimately.
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[ Happily, he swings their hands together, and sways a little in his spot as well. Mizuki may have been raised
by cultistsin a Church, but he's really not a religious person. He believes in what the Arbor stands for, and what it once provided and did, but there are some... complicated feelings there. There's some complicated feelings for We Many. There's a lot of... jumbled, complicated... stuff. ]If the Gods created creatures, then are those creatures not also God? They must be pieces of them, at least, surely? I believe there are simply people who earn respect and even prayer, but those people are not necessarily good, or even gods, right? So, then, where is the divide?
If Gods are simply something we cannot understand, then are many, many Gods that differ between people, even. For instance, I don't understand emotions all that well. Does that make it my God~?
[ Before she has the chance to answer, Mizuki lets go of one of her hands and pulls the other up, guiding her into a little twirl before giving a bright, sunny laugh. ] I don't think anyone can truly define divinity.
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[ As swift as she seemed to smile, she frowns gently. ]
That is why the Beast, takes our souls and consumes it - making certain we are never reborn again. He wants the small parts of Ao within us, so that he can become stronger then he is... [ Yes she will talk about the facts of her world like it is nothing, she has done this in the campaign its a thing. ]
But ah -
[ she twirls a bit mystified, did he want to dance? Caoimhe had not danced for some time, and the movement of her twirl made her feel balanced in some way. When she enters back before him. She looks at either side of him and gently comes close and moves a bit as if to dance. ]
That is what I mean... But we, as living beings... We are defined, and part of that is by the Gods in some way...
While the Gods are divided mainly by the power in their hands, but also the laws of the cosmos that we know nothing of... And maybe just, will never understand... Yes... I think that's okay...
I also think that. [ A small smile. ] If Mizuki is a God, he would be a Great God. A kindest one, yes! I would hope your people will dance to the ocean waves, sing your songs, and represent the strength that is in your heart.
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I do not believe that we are defined, actually. Not when we have so many things that make us unique, if we are truly pieces of a whole.
[ Mizuki will absolutely start to sway with Caoimhe, a songless little dance to keep up the energy. To keep Caoimhe happy. ]
Ehehe, you think so~? It's too bad, then, that I'm not a God. I don't even fit your definition a little bit. I'm just Mizuki.
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Mm! That's okay - I-I am most endeared by it... [ It is a quiet gentle dance, Caoimhe feels the moment deeply. ] I love who you are, simply as you are, that is why I was so sad... To have felt scared of you before.
I felt that I betrayed you, Mizuki... Despite how much I love you. [ She leans in a bit closer, at least despite the tears that still seemed to sit on her cheeks from moments before. Caoimhe is able to smile truly for the other. ] Thank you for understanding me, and being so kind... Always... I am happy to have met you, am happy that Mizuki is just Mizuki.
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Mmh, I'm glad Caoimhe is Caoimhe, too. I think... [ A rumbling in his head, the whispers of the collective, the thoughts of We Many, the voice he can never discern from his own. ] I think the Gods are overrated, anyway.
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[ Somewhere her mother's own heart cries, knowing her daughter is so much like her. ]
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... [ He squeezes her hands, still smiling, still upbeat, not slowing down with his dancing, but... his voice sounds just a tinge forlorn. ]
And that is why we would make terrible Gods.
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... Mizuki, I.. I wanted to show you something... I am not sure how the spell will work, but... I would be comfortable if you were here with me while I cast it... Do you want to see?
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Of course. [ But now isn’t the time to think about that. He’s back to his infinite cheer. ] What is it?
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okay...
[ Caoimhe holds the harp in her hand, and with a manifestation within her chest. Imagines it far larger, it transforms in her hand into a lap harp now and sits against her hip. ]
I-If... If it goes bad... Could you - - ? Make sure to help fight with me?
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[ Each stroke of the string, reverberates into the air, and the beautiful tune played is that of a gentle summer song. With each cord played a warm wind passes by them but it is cool to the touch as if it were to rain at any moment. When her eyes shut she seems to imbue magic alongside her harp, and within a matter of moments. What Mizuki will see is the form of a raindrop small in size and quality - become suddenly large. Collecting water from nowhere in particular but within itself -
It reaches about 10ft in diameter and bubbles itself before them both. A whole bubble of water. It seems to bounce about buoyant in its conception, and whirl in circles on the spot. It has no eyes and takes no shape currently but what Mizuki hears right after is the sound of some deranged gurgling akin to the rumble of ocean waves, or something inherently inhuman. ]
Eh? Eh? Where am I? What am I doing here? [ It speaks Primordial, and echoes these words to no one in particular. ]
[ Caoimhe stops her music playing and seems rather excited suddenly!! ]
OH! It worked!!! It worked!! H-Hello! Mizuki!! Look!!!!
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Mizuki has absolutely no idea what's going on, but Caoimhe said "help fight" just moments before, so... Mizuki is absolutely chucking his harpoon-umbrella at this thing. Especially after it gurgles like that. No, no, no, no, nu-uh, not here, not now. ]
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Attack? Attack? Attack? Attack? No? No? Why did they attack? I just got here. I should attack... [ Gurgle gurgle... ]
No don't attack! T-This is friendly!
... Okay. But if he attacks again, fight. Fight.
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been subjected to Mizuki's nat1made the mistake of not really explaining to Mizuki what she intends to do. Moreover, has told him to prepare for a fight, which already had him on the offensive. Maybe it's that sort of negative combination, then, that sets off something inside of Mizuki? He doesn't immediately pounce on the creature or anything like that since he will heed Caoimhe's request for now, but just his posture makes it abundantly clear that he is unhappy. ]What is that? Why can't We feel it...? What did you do? [ It speaks in a tongue native to the Seaborn, yet They are making him bristle at the sound. Perhaps because communication and thought in his language is often also accompanied through other means in the hivemind? ] ...We don't like it, Caoimhe.
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[ Caoimhe looks over to the Elemental and seems to apologize to it profusely. She clasps her hands together and with a break in her concentrates on the weave. The elemental disperses and the water from whence it came from lessense until it finally diminishes entirely.
Once it is gone, she is hesitant but looks toward Mizuki with nothing but concern for him and his wellbeing. ]
I-It is an elemental - o-on my realm... It is powerful magic, I met one before in my travels but only once and heard of their powers through old text but... I did not think I would be able to summon one myself until I started to work more and more with this Harp I acquired.
[ Caoimhe turns the Harp into a Lyre and shows it to the other. ]
D-Do you need me to do anything, I am so sorry. I was hopeful that.. The water Elemental would help you with your issues in needing to be in water so much. I am so sorry, I did not think it would turn out to be so - - horrifying an experience. T-Tell me what I can do to help!
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Abomination. We should've...
No, no you're overreacting. It's fine.
Is this really important to you?
[ ... ]
Ah- it's alright, Caoimhe, you didn't do anything wrong, We just misunderstood your intentions. Sorry. Were you startled?
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I... No it's... I did not want you to hurt it because... If you did then it may have surely, turned on us both. [ Thankfully its SUMMON elemental and not CONJURE elemental. ] I am just glad no one was hurt, I am so sorry Mizuki...
[ She comes closer hoping to help offer her hands or body to lean on. ]
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