[The disinfectant gets dunked on him and Elsword hisses out in pain, brief, before his eye settles back on Mizuki. Then they look to Add, then to Mizuki again, and he nods once.]
Yeah. Then I could keep tabs on you guys when you go into the woods next. [Normal behaviour.] And then Add can know that I think he's perfect the way he is, and Mizuki can know I don't think he's a monster like Irene does. So yeah.
I want to feel the stuff that makes you guys happy, too.
[He has half an idea what he's agreeing to here, but it caught Add off-guard... has Mizuki already offered for Add to join We Many, maybe? That would make sense, since hiveminds are supposed to add more... minds... to the hive. Or something like that.]
[ There's a brief moment where Mizuki moves forward to ? help Elsword? in some capacity after the disinfectant is spilled, but he knows there's not much to be done on the matter now. Sorry. He should've waited until Add was done with the painful part…
You are, unfortunately, not the first person to intensely yell in Mizuki's mind, Add. Though, admittedly, the fact that this is yelling and not eldritch shrieking means he's at least a little more sympathetic. But also? He adores you, Add, and has a disgusting amount of loyalty towards you, yet right now even he thinks you're being far too anxious.
Please listen to Elsword. It's important to hear about his wants, too. That's kind of the whole point of being in a relationship. ]
So you would want that? To be with us, to have our thoughts with yours, our emotions together, a oneness and complete integration with one another?
[Elsword please understand what you're asking for challenge.]
As much as it sucked to feel only people's bad emotions that one month, [whatever month that was, it was one of them, Elsword has lost track,] I was... okay with it, in a weird way. It let me know you were safe, and I was able to find Mizuki when he was injured. Stuff like that.
[It goes back to Elsword's need to Constantly protect other people, even if it'll be actively detrimental to his wellbeing. How is he supposed to jump in front of a bullet if he can't find y'all? Checkmate, atheists.]
It's not that simple. Do you ever think before speaking?
[He'd fallen quiet, between the shock and the disbelief, but he regains his composure enough to interject. Is this exchange, is Elsword's consent supposed to make him happy? Can it be that easy? All he had to do was ask?
Of course not. He sighs, exasperated, and roughly pulls down Elsword's shirt to access the shoulder. This is faster (and less distracting) than making his strip. He is going to treat this bitewound, thanks...]
Ignoring the risks that come with invasive surgery, complications and rejection by the body, having to adapt to a new method of communication that may be uncomfortable or difficult to use... modifications of this nature are permanent, I would hope you'd ask more questions before impulsively agreeing to something you don't understand. There won't be any "changing your mind" later.
[There's more. He knows there's more, but he still hesitates, staring down as he wraps the wound... he's thought about this one. There are a few different approaches he can take, he doesn't have to say anything at all, but is it better if he can explain it away with a good excuse? That leaves less risk in the long term, right? He doesn't have to lie about it. He can be more honest about why it has to stay a secret... he may even be able to test it openly. But there's always a risk. If Elsword gets suspicious, disagrees, blurts it out to someone by mistake...
he shouldn't say it at all. it could be his trump card. something no one could expect, not even the Forest.
... ah, the Forest can hear through him, can't it? maybe... it would even think of this as a mistake. allowing Elsword into their minds, and it by extension...]
[His hand wanders, abandoning the carefully-wound bandages to trace up Elsword's neck, over the black vines, stopping as his fingertips cradle the edges of the petals blooming from his empty socket... a beautiful, disgusting parasite. Is it listening now? Watching? Oblivious to their plans? Does it think it still has the upper hand?
Slowly, his mouth widens to a crooked smile, worries giving way to sharp focus.
A surprise. Yes, this can be the surprise. A gift of total control, wrested away from something vile and unworthy...]
... electromagnetic frequency is bad for plants. I wonder... will it wilt if I make you mine?
[ You know, in hindsight, Mizuki should have worded this differently. He knows Add pretty well at this point. Maybe not entirely, as he's been way too busy for another therapy session with Mizuki for… understandable reasons, but enough to know that wording things in a way such that it's Add's idea, or convincing him to bring it up with prodding would've been the way to handle it. Mizuki's lucky he got there on his own, but he needs to be way less selfish. This should be Add's decision. No matter how much Mizuki desperately needscraveshungers for wants Elsword in his head as well. Something just sort of took hold of him in that moment. Maybe it was just the fact he didn't want Add upset, or maybe this was just a convenient way to get Mizuki's wants out of the way, or maybe the emotional peaks and drops tonight have all just left Mizuki with the emotional comprehension equivalence of static snow.
Or maybe he really is a monster? Who's to say for sure.
Whatever the reason is doesn't matter now, though. It's fixed itself! Clearly Add being a weird little freak is actually a positive thing to Mizuki, who is also a known weird little freak, so this is all good! He's not sure if he should excuse himself now, though? It's getting really cold, even if the storm is letting up a bit. He could be doing anything that would be more productive than just sitting there, but he doesn't… want to. He wants to get back under the covers and cuddle with Elsword. He wants to keep watching his heroes be the perfect couple (sources: Mizuki). He wants Add to tell him "You're mine, too" and everything to just magically work out for once tonight.
What he needs is to just sleep. He's so emotionally exhausted he can't even find it in him to be excited about the thing he wants most in the world. Or, well, that's not entirely true. There's still some emotional bubbling inside. He's… jealous, he thinks. Or guilty? Maybe it's just residual panic from the meeting. All of the above? There's just a weird gross cocktail of Yuck that sits in his stomach, and maybe he's just waiting for that to die down.
…There's a brief apology to Dynamo. They're dealing with his anxiety, right? He's okay! Things have just been a whole lot tonight. He can put on a smile now, though. Things will settle and everything is going to be alright. Just as always! He just needs to stop being such a negative Nancy.
And with that, he'll scoot himself out of the bed to go look for something to patch the window. It is getting incredibly cold in here, after all. ]
[Luckily for Mizuki, he should be able to find something to patch the window up with. Otherwise they can Move Bedrooms and cuddle up over there.
Elsword has not yet made this suggestion, because he's too busy having a fucking Moment over Add, thanks. Somewhere in the back of his throat is a "No, I don't think before speaking, we've gone over this", because Add so often throws that into his face and at this point Elsword isn't sure how to drive that home. "I already have God and the Forest arguing in my head, what's another thing", he wants to say. "Didn't you say you were going to help cure everything wrong with me?" he's about to ask in a tone that might be sassy if he weren't so unemotional all the time.
Nope, no, Add goes for the fucking kill of will it make you mine, the one thing that gets Elsword's monkey-brain revving its engines. He freezes at the touch, noting with some amount of discomfort that the flower petals have sensation when something like this absolutely shouldn't, but... woof. Okay. Be normal, buddy, you can do this.]
Y... yeah? [failed step one] I hope so. I'd rather have you in my head than two supernatural entities arguing all the time.
[lol lmao]
If you could shut them up... if you could fix me, I'd owe you more than just a couple kisses.
["if you cure me i'll give you head" said boy who was already going to be doing that]
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Yeah. Then I could keep tabs on you guys when you go into the woods next. [Normal behaviour.] And then Add can know that I think he's perfect the way he is, and Mizuki can know I don't think he's a monster like Irene does. So yeah.
I want to feel the stuff that makes you guys happy, too.
[He has half an idea what he's agreeing to here, but it caught Add off-guard... has Mizuki already offered for Add to join We Many, maybe? That would make sense, since hiveminds are supposed to add more... minds... to the hive. Or something like that.]
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You are, unfortunately, not the first person to intensely yell in Mizuki's mind, Add. Though, admittedly, the fact that this is yelling and not eldritch shrieking means he's at least a little more sympathetic. But also? He adores you, Add, and has a disgusting amount of loyalty towards you, yet right now even he thinks you're being far too anxious.
Please listen to Elsword. It's important to hear about his wants, too. That's kind of the whole point of being in a relationship. ]
So you would want that? To be with us, to have our thoughts with yours, our emotions together, a oneness and complete integration with one another?
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[Elsword please understand what you're asking for challenge.]
As much as it sucked to feel only people's bad emotions that one month, [whatever month that was, it was one of them, Elsword has lost track,] I was... okay with it, in a weird way. It let me know you were safe, and I was able to find Mizuki when he was injured. Stuff like that.
[It goes back to Elsword's need to Constantly protect other people, even if it'll be actively detrimental to his wellbeing. How is he supposed to jump in front of a bullet if he can't find y'all? Checkmate, atheists.]
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[He'd fallen quiet, between the shock and the disbelief, but he regains his composure enough to interject. Is this exchange, is Elsword's consent supposed to make him happy? Can it be that easy? All he had to do was ask?
Of course not. He sighs, exasperated, and roughly pulls down Elsword's shirt to access the shoulder. This is faster
(and less distracting)than making his strip. He is going to treat this bitewound, thanks...]Ignoring the risks that come with invasive surgery, complications and rejection by the body, having to adapt to a new method of communication that may be uncomfortable or difficult to use... modifications of this nature are permanent, I would hope you'd ask more questions before impulsively agreeing to something you don't understand. There won't be any "changing your mind" later.
[There's more. He knows there's more, but he still hesitates, staring down as he wraps the wound... he's thought about this one. There are a few different approaches he can take, he doesn't have to say anything at all, but is it better if he can explain it away with a good excuse? That leaves less risk in the long term, right? He doesn't have to lie about it. He can be more honest about why it has to stay a secret... he may even be able to test it openly. But there's always a risk. If Elsword gets suspicious, disagrees, blurts it out to someone by mistake...
he shouldn't say it at all. it could be his trump card. something no one could expect, not even the Forest.
... ah, the Forest can hear through him, can't it? maybe... it would even think of this as a mistake. allowing Elsword into their minds, and it by extension...]
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Slowly, his mouth widens to a crooked smile, worries giving way to sharp focus.
A surprise. Yes, this can be the surprise. A gift of total control, wrested away from something vile and unworthy...]
... electromagnetic frequency is bad for plants. I wonder... will it wilt if I make you mine?
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needscraveshungers forwants Elsword in his head as well. Something just sort of took hold of him in that moment. Maybe it was just the fact he didn't want Add upset, or maybe this was just a convenient way to get Mizuki's wants out of the way, or maybe the emotional peaks and drops tonight have all just left Mizuki with the emotional comprehension equivalence of static snow.Or maybe he really is a monster? Who's to say for sure.
Whatever the reason is doesn't matter now, though. It's fixed itself! Clearly Add being a weird little freak is actually a positive thing to Mizuki, who is also a known weird little freak, so this is all good! He's not sure if he should excuse himself now, though? It's getting really cold, even if the storm is letting up a bit. He could be doing anything that would be more productive than just sitting there, but he doesn't… want to. He wants to get back under the covers and cuddle with Elsword. He wants to keep watching his heroes be the perfect couple (sources: Mizuki). He wants Add to tell him "You're mine, too" and everything to just magically work out for once tonight.
What he needs is to just sleep. He's so emotionally exhausted he can't even find it in him to be excited about the thing he wants most in the world. Or, well, that's not entirely true. There's still some emotional bubbling inside. He's… jealous, he thinks. Or guilty? Maybe it's just residual panic from the meeting. All of the above? There's just a weird gross cocktail of Yuck that sits in his stomach, and maybe he's just waiting for that to die down.
…There's a brief apology to Dynamo. They're dealing with his anxiety, right? He's okay! Things have just been a whole lot tonight. He can put on a smile now, though. Things will settle and everything is going to be alright. Just as always! He just needs to stop being such a negative Nancy.
And with that, he'll scoot himself out of the bed to go look for something to patch the window. It is getting incredibly cold in here, after all. ]
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Elsword has not yet made this suggestion, because he's too busy having a fucking Moment over Add, thanks. Somewhere in the back of his throat is a "No, I don't think before speaking, we've gone over this", because Add so often throws that into his face and at this point Elsword isn't sure how to drive that home. "I already have God and the Forest arguing in my head, what's another thing", he wants to say. "Didn't you say you were going to help cure everything wrong with me?" he's about to ask in a tone that might be sassy if he weren't so unemotional all the time.
Nope, no, Add goes for the fucking kill of will it make you mine, the one thing that gets Elsword's monkey-brain revving its engines. He freezes at the touch, noting with some amount of discomfort that the flower petals have sensation when something like this absolutely shouldn't, but... woof. Okay. Be normal, buddy, you can do this.]
Y... yeah? [failed step one] I hope so. I'd rather have you in my head than two supernatural entities arguing all the time.
[lol lmao]
If you could shut them up... if you could fix me, I'd owe you more than just a couple kisses.
["if you cure me i'll give you head" said boy who was already going to be doing that]