[By the time that first Tuesday rolls around, Wolfwood...finds himself getting cold feet. He very nearly ditches the appointment entirely, realizing at the final hour that maybe he doesn't want to bear his soul like this, even if Mizuki is one of the few people here he trusts to not blab it all to everyone he sees.
...but he promised. And, damn it, if there's one thing he keeps, it's a promise.
So he's here at the therapy building, bright and early. He figures Mizuki is waiting for him, but just in case...he'll knock on the door to his "office" anyway.]
[ Mizuki is indeed waiting. He'd been waiting for a while, actually, as Mizuki has been trying to make sure everything was perfect. And by "perfect", I mean, of course, that instead of reading his psychology textbooks to prepare for any of this he just spent two hours nudging the same plant until it's perfectly in the right spot.
So he's doing well!
When Wolfwood knocks, Mizuki swings the door open with a big smile that somehow seems even brighter when he confirms it's truly Wolfwood at the door. Thank god he's wearing sunglasses. ]
Hello! I'm so glad you made it! Please, come in, make yourself comfortable.
[ He'll shuffle aside and only close the door once Wolfwood is inside. There's a bamboo water spout that's making the faintest sound of running water, but other than that, it's mostly quiet. Calming. You know how it is. ]
[Oh my god, his smile. Good thing he's wearing sunglasses indeed...]
Yeah...thanks.
[Wolfwood steps in as Mizuki ushers him inside, and honestly the quiet is really what makes it sink in that oh, this is happening. This should be easy, he thinks, except despite that his heart is racing.
It will not improve as he moves to take a seat, resting his hands loosely on his knees.]
So, uh. You're gonna hafta guide me a little here...I dunno really where to start.
[ Mizuki takes a seat in the other chair, though he's liable to join Wolfwood on the couch at some point. Right now, they're establishing things, anyway. ]
Well, you don't have to force anything. That'll just make things worse. You have to feel comfortable enough to let things come out on their own. With that said, it's easiest to start with... just "How are you?" What are you feeling today? Right now? What's on your mind? Have you eaten today?
[Shit. That's so...conversational. Here he thought Mizuki would be like "so tell me about your childhood" immediately and he would have wanted to leap headfirst out the window.
And what Mizuki will learn immediately is Wolfwood isn't always..........entirely honest? About his feelings...]
M'fine, I guess. [Untrue.] I'm tired, but what else is new. [Not...totally a lie?] I'm, uh. Thinkin' about what I'm answerin' your questions with right now...and I ate a fried egg on toast for breakfast.
[ Mizuki adjusts himself briefly so he can grab a clipboard from the table between them. He flips past the first page and quickly jots something down on the second, then flips again to the third before looking up at Wolfwood. ]
What sort of things are you hoping for in our talk today? What has been in your thoughts the most today? What would you say are things that are going well lately?
Wolfwood shifts back on the couch, tilting his head up to look at the ceiling.]
I dunno. I ain't really sure how I'm 'sposed t'...feel after all this, I guess. Like, you hear that therapy helps people, but I ain't so sure how much I believe that.
[Yes because you've never Had it.]
And...I guess I've been kinda anxious about this. Because I dunno what to expect.
[Oh my god a scrap of honesty.]
But...things that're goin' well. I mean. 'Sides this?
[He gestures to his missing leg.]
...I've got Vash. And Liv. That's not somethin' I had back home.
That's alright. The answers don't need to be anything beyond "I'm trying to figure this out, too". Honestly, I'm glad you're giving this a chance. I can't guarantee anything will change after the first session or anything like that, and realistically, even if this is just a session to help loosen your nerves about doing this, I consider that a successful session. Besides, I'm sure just talking about things will gradually help.
And, of course, if there's anything you don't want to answer, you don't have to. You can just tell me you want a different question or something like that, okay? Your comfort takes precedent.
[ And Mizuki jots down a few more things here. ] That's good to hear! How are things going with them? Are they helping you adjust?
[Thank god for Mizuki, honestly. He's truly out here working to Wolfwood's strengths, which are "I have a hard time talking about myself because I don't really want to ever, also I don't like people", soooo
We're getting somewhere, if by millimeters instead of inches.
So he nods, and dare I say his expression actually manages to look a little fond.]
They're goin'...great. I never really thought I'd be in a place where I'd get t'have 'em both, and be livin' with 'em both.
[Like, he saw Livio die in his own timeline. He doesn't like to think about it, though.]
And they are, yeah. They've been real patient with me.
[ Just don't tell him that out loud, he'll get nervous and shut down- ]
That's fantastic, then! Is there anything specifically you want to see changed, then? Anything that maybe you'd like to take the steps toward in improving? Beyond, of course, the forest. But that's an entirely different fish to fry, I feel.
Well, generally when someone says they want to be kinder, it's because it's affecting something in their life they want to change. Like, for example, if someone consistently argued with their family, or if someone keeps losing their job because of their behavior, or something like that. What are the ends you want to see, Father Wolfwood?
I know I'm...constantly gettin' into it with people. If they're gonna dish it out, I'm gonna give as good as I get. But that ain't always the right call...and it ain't just with other people. I feel like if I weren't so shitty at dealing with shit like that, it'd be easier. Same goes for my boyfriends, too.
[He isn't pointing to a specific instance but, uh. Their shit is MESSY and he knows it.]
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Backdated tooo sometime in May, this is their first (1st) therapy session
...but he promised. And, damn it, if there's one thing he keeps, it's a promise.
So he's here at the therapy building, bright and early. He figures Mizuki is waiting for him, but just in case...he'll knock on the door to his "office" anyway.]
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So he's doing well!
When Wolfwood knocks, Mizuki swings the door open with a big smile that somehow seems even brighter when he confirms it's truly Wolfwood at the door. Thank god he's wearing sunglasses. ]
Hello! I'm so glad you made it! Please, come in, make yourself comfortable.
[ He'll shuffle aside and only close the door once Wolfwood is inside. There's a bamboo water spout that's making the faintest sound of running water, but other than that, it's mostly quiet. Calming. You know how it is. ]
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Yeah...thanks.
[Wolfwood steps in as Mizuki ushers him inside, and honestly the quiet is really what makes it sink in that oh, this is happening. This should be easy, he thinks, except despite that his heart is racing.
It will not improve as he moves to take a seat, resting his hands loosely on his knees.]
So, uh. You're gonna hafta guide me a little here...I dunno really where to start.
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Well, you don't have to force anything. That'll just make things worse. You have to feel comfortable enough to let things come out on their own. With that said, it's easiest to start with... just "How are you?" What are you feeling today? Right now? What's on your mind? Have you eaten today?
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[Shit. That's so...conversational. Here he thought Mizuki would be like "so tell me about your childhood" immediately and he would have wanted to leap headfirst out the window.
And what Mizuki will learn immediately is Wolfwood isn't always..........entirely honest? About his feelings...]
M'fine, I guess. [Untrue.] I'm tired, but what else is new. [Not...totally a lie?] I'm, uh. Thinkin' about what I'm answerin' your questions with right now...and I ate a fried egg on toast for breakfast.
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What sort of things are you hoping for in our talk today? What has been in your thoughts the most today? What would you say are things that are going well lately?
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Wolfwood shifts back on the couch, tilting his head up to look at the ceiling.]
I dunno. I ain't really sure how I'm 'sposed t'...feel after all this, I guess. Like, you hear that therapy helps people, but I ain't so sure how much I believe that.
[Yes because you've never Had it.]
And...I guess I've been kinda anxious about this. Because I dunno what to expect.
[Oh my god a scrap of honesty.]
But...things that're goin' well. I mean. 'Sides this?
[He gestures to his missing leg.]
...I've got Vash. And Liv. That's not somethin' I had back home.
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And, of course, if there's anything you don't want to answer, you don't have to. You can just tell me you want a different question or something like that, okay? Your comfort takes precedent.
[ And Mizuki jots down a few more things here. ] That's good to hear! How are things going with them? Are they helping you adjust?
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We're getting somewhere, if by millimeters instead of inches.
So he nods, and dare I say his expression actually manages to look a little fond.]
They're goin'...great. I never really thought I'd be in a place where I'd get t'have 'em both, and be livin' with 'em both.
[Like, he saw Livio die in his own timeline. He doesn't like to think about it, though.]
And they are, yeah. They've been real patient with me.
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That's fantastic, then! Is there anything specifically you want to see changed, then? Anything that maybe you'd like to take the steps toward in improving? Beyond, of course, the forest. But that's an entirely different fish to fry, I feel.
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[Yes Wolfwood, that's what therapy is for.]
...I could be better with people. Kinder, I guess.
[He has anger management issues Mizuki this man was not raised.]
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What do I want? I mean...I dunno what else I could want other than that.
[Friends, he wants friends.]
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...fuck. Okay.
I know I'm...constantly gettin' into it with people. If they're gonna dish it out, I'm gonna give as good as I get. But that ain't always the right call...and it ain't just with other people. I feel like if I weren't so shitty at dealing with shit like that, it'd be easier. Same goes for my boyfriends, too.
[He isn't pointing to a specific instance but, uh. Their shit is MESSY and he knows it.]