[ Mizuki is... well, Mizuki is sleeping. He's been uncharacteristically tired lately, but maybe with all the Seaborn frozen under the river, he's just exhausted? Or... something?? Who knows! It's probably nothing to worry about.
He does pretty immediately wake up when he hears Affogato's voice. Despite the haze and grogginess of waking up, there's still a delight to hearing his beloved. A sleepy, yet cheerful "Affogato~!" will be heard in his head, and moments later he'll even pull himself from the bed-couch to embrace his love. ]
[ Oh, look at him. Oogh, he feels like he's ungrateful. He has someone so adorable and loving and perfect, how could he even considering wanting more? He wants to say nevermind, but instead he wraps his arms around Mizuki to lift him enough to crawl back into the bed-couch with him, dipping to kiss his face all over. To get comfortable with him, nuzzle in against his sweet face.
Ungrateful. Undeserving. ]
I'm sorry I woke you. I can wait until later if you desire more sleep. But I made a promise to you, and I intend to keep it, so we must speak in the future.
[ Mizuki frowns, just a bit. He feels a little guilty about this, if just because he feels responsible for not giving more of a warning. He had gotten that weird dream, after all, about that memory... He did bring it up at the town hall, but not putting anything up in preparations is his own fault.
He doesn't mention this, though. Rather, he just nods.
...
On Affogato's confession, Mizuki doesn't really seem like he's absorbing it. Not at first, anyway. He supposes, maybe, he's not surprised? Hurt. Hurt, for sure. Especially after confiding in him the relationship he's had with Dark Cacao makes Mizuki jealous, and the assurance that he "couldn't make Affogato happy". Mizuki doesn't look angry, truly, but he does bristle a bit, anyway.
Affogato won't hear anything for a moment, simply just taking this time to mull this over. When he finally speaks, he'll feel Mizuki's fingers hook into his clothes. ]
[ The soft clutch to his clothes makes him sigh, and he can feel the slight bristling. He shifts an arm to wrap it around Mizuki, tuck him in against him.
And pauses to his words, thinking that over.
Did he? Cacao is well aware of the line they drew between each other. Is well aware of his alternate selfs desires and the memories that he kept. And yet chose to step over the line, chose to push into Affogato's life again, dig his fingers into his desires and pull them up taut.
He sighs and rests his forehead on Mizuki's. But did he do something? He's only ever going to be truthful with Mizuki. ]
I truly do not know. On the beach as we watched over the eggs, I gained the memories of another version of myself. One where we had shared love together. I learned what it was like to have him, and upon returning to myself the memories lingered. I avoided him for as long as I could until he invited me to the Sunrise Ceremony, to sort my thoughts and feelings back out. It is something we do in our home for the New Years.
[ He moves his hands to find Mizuki's tendrils, taking hold of them so they curl around them. ]
He approached me at the end, said he desired me and has for some time and that's when I kissed him. But I don't know if I truly desire him in return or love him, or am simply swept up in the idea of it.
[ As much as Mizuki believes the jealousy lingers, now more than ever, it's mixed with a concern for Affogato that shows through more. Is he possessively clinging to Affogato, coiling his tentacles around his limbs the very second they're presented? Yes. Absolutely. But is he also looking at Affogato with a mix of worry and sadness? Also yes. Mizuki's had maybe two interactions with Dark Cacao and one of them Mizuki had been bristled like an angry cat the whole time, so he doesn't really have much of an opinion of him beyond the things he knows through Affogato...
[ To be fair to Mizuki, Affogato's opinions of Dark Cacao haven't been great until they started to cautiously approach friendship. And then the pushing and pulling started and Affogato truly feels like a mess. ]
I don't know.
[ His voice is soft and it feels like such a sidestepping answer, but it's the truth. He frowns and plays with Mizuki's tentacles, enjoying the tangle around his hands. ]
I truly do not know. You are the first one to have truly made me happy in my entire life. No one has made me so such as you. Yet even I can admit my... experiences until you have not been the best. I do not truly know what does or does not make me happy. Can he make me happy? I do not know.
[ He untangles one hand from Mizuki's tentacles to bring it up, slide his nails gently across Mizuki's cheek. And it's not a jab or anything, but genuine question. ]
[ Mizuki shifts himself to very gently press a kiss to Affogato's lips when he frowns, hating seeing him so upset. He can only imagine the thoughts he's having. Conflicted, for sure. His words convey that much. As much as it might hurt, working on his own jealous is something he's said he wants to do. So he's trying. He truly is. No matter how much right now he wants to chew on Affogato and leave him with a couple new holes... ]
"The same"... no. But I would not say it's any more or less, either. Just different. But he does make me happy, yes. I've never had a doubt about that. It's the reason we got together to begin with - he cares for me and my happiness above most things.
Much like with you, though. You care about my happiness. You were there for me when I got back from the Garden and made me feel loved even if you had accidentally caused me pain. And... um, I don't know how to word this a little more delicately, I'm sorry... but... can you say the same for Dark Cacao?
[ The kiss is returned just as gently, soft and sweet. There's no way he can't be with Mizuki. His little love makes him feel soft. And he listens, thoughtful, finger rubbing gently back and forth over his cheek. Equal, just different.
And he already knows Cacao can't care for him above all others, but can he care for him equally? He promised he can, otherwise he wouldn't have offered. Does he make him feel loved, even when he hurts? He can't hold the past against him. It was a dark time for them both. He sighs against Mizuki's mouth, rests their faces together. ]
Remember, there is no need to be 'delicate' with me, my little love. As for your question...
[ Quiet as he ponders. ]
I think I can, yes. But most importantly, I worry for you. Your mark is on my skin, and I do not want you to be hurt.
[ Can he give Mizuki the same amount of love he gives Cacao? ... Could he even possibly give Cacao the same amount of love he gives Mizuki, truthfully. ]
I just... from the things you've told me... even if it was for a greater reason, he still hurt you, right? More than that, you hurt the people he cared about, too, right? [ Maybe not physically (or, from Mizuki's perspective), but still... ] I'm just worried about how he'll treat you.
... [ He curls a bit and presses his head into Affogato's chest instead. ]
And... I would be lying if I said I wasn't also insanely jealous about the thought of you both being together. It's not a competition and I know you love me and you've done so much to prove that, but there's still this voice in the back of my head that says you both have more history and what if you realize I'm not good enough or what if I'm not giving you enough love and aren't you supposed to be mine and...
I know I said I'd work on it, but it's still so hard to silence those thoughts.
[ Yet Affogato thinks of Cacao planting himself as the Therapy Office to protect him in case anyone wanted vengeance for Mizuki. Of protecting him on the beach. Of his forgiveness for hurting Pure Vanilla and the others.
He wraps his arms tighter as Mizuki curls up, tucking him in and under the blankets a bit more. His heart aches and he softly drops kisses onto his head. ]
And I admit, I would be insanely jealous if Elsword returned, and desired you in his arms once again. I would worry and wonder the same.
[ He would want to bite and claw, and scream and wail. But - did he not just tell Cacao that Suri's behavior between Beiwe and Ourania was obsession then, and not love? He reaches up to tangle his hands into Mizuki's hair. ]
Yet, despite it, I know I could never deny you that love. If that is what you truly wanted, both of us, I would understand. Your teeth are under my skin, your breathing fills my lungs, how could I not know you love me?
[ He gently tugs to tilt his head up, his expression soft. ]
But I will not ask you to do the same. If you wish me all to yourself, then you have me all to yourself. You only need to say it.
[ For a while, there’s silence. Well, aside from the ruffling of clothes and sound of sticky tentacles trying to find more to hold onto. The follower part of Mizuki wants to ask for help. To ask what he’s supposed to say or do in this situation. He’s not good at making decisions. That’s not what he does. Especially something like this, when everything in his head is desperate to make him say “no”.
But it isn’t fair, is it? To expect something like that of Affogato and to receive the opposite treatment. He could never. After all, Affogato does deserve all the love. He’s just… he’s just……… ]
I’m scared. I’m scared you’ll go home with him after all of this, and I’ll be here without you.
[ He knows Elsword is going home. And he knows… realistically, if Affogato wanted, it isn’t like he could stop him from going home, either. He knows they’ve got lives back home and that they weren’t meant to be here at the Grove like this and meant to live their own lives and such, but… it’s hard to think eventually he has to let go. He doesn’t want to. He’s incredibly clingy. ]
[ Well that's an easy thing to answer as he presses his mouth to Mizuki's forehead in a soft little kiss. He can allay this fear. ]
I am never leaving here, unless it is to go with you to your home.
[ He gently strokes his thumbs down Mizuki's face to his chin, tilting his head back with them so he can kiss him soft and sweet. ]
I vowed that to you, and I will not break that. If you remain here, I will remain. If you return to your home, I shall follow. There is nothing for me back at my home, but everything for me here.
[ Even if Cacao goes, the rest of the world is against him. He would be seen as a deserter by the Cacao Kingdom - even with a pardon - and seen as a deserter by Dark Enchantresses group. No. He will stay wrapped around Mizuki, able to kiss him every day for the rest of their lives. Or, his own. ]
[ And, finally, Mizuki relaxes. Just a little. He still seems a bit uncertain, and still has that itch in the back of his head to give into those possessive impulses, but... there's at least less tension. He's silent for a moment as he tries to find words that aren't anywhere between childish tantrum and eldritch obsession. It's a lot harder than for him than it sounds. He's more than happy to let a few more kisses fill the silence in the meantime. ]
I... I want you to be happy. [ Why did it have to be Dark Cacao, though!! ] I don't think I'll be... not jealous. But... if you're okay to be lenient with me about that... I can work on it, I think.
I love you so much, you know? I'll always be yours.
I will always be patient with you, as you are always with me.
[ He smiles and rests their foreheads together to nuzzle their noses gently, kisses him again but with a little more bite to it. A little more possessiveness. ]
As I love you, and will always be yours.
[ He pulls back just enough to reach up and move his hair aside, move the collar of his clothes down. Bare the spot between neck and shoulder where Mizuki's teeth have left their scars. ]
[ Mizuki closes his eyes for just a moment, letting himself settle in Affogato's affection. He knows that, no matter what, he'll always love Mizuki. And vice versa, of course. So, everything should be alright in the end. So long as they keep being open with one another - and Affogato has been incredibly open with him.
And there's also the many holes he continues to leave in Affogato that make him so happy to see every time. ]
I would never make you beg. Especially not with something like this.
[ He's more than happy to. In fact, he'd been holding himself back from doing so, thus the invitation is essentially freeing Mizuki's chains. He wastes absolutely no time to move his lips down to Affogato's shoulders, and with one sweet kiss against his skin, he chases it with a sharp bite, those razors he calls teeth burying into him for the umpteenth time.
All the while, Mizuki's tendrils anchor themselves to Affogato's limbs, tracing little hearts against him, as he usually does. ]
[ It's most definitely not a pained noise, as Mizuki sinks his teeth in. It's stopped being painful to him a while ago. Instead it's almost pleasurable now, the burn and sink of those sharp little teeth, marking up his usually so-well-kept skin all over again.
And then he laughs, a little breathless. ]
Always my eager little love~
[ He wants to dig his nails into Mizuki and carve him up with love, reaching down instead to the lower part of his back, digging his fingers into the stingers. Nails scratch just a little as his voice drops into a low murmur. ]
My Mizuki. As I am your Affogato.
[ Other's may share in them, Mizuki can love Elsword and visa versa, but he's his anyways. His his his. ]
[ The desperate clinging doesn’t stop after Mizuki’s teeth sink in. The opposite, really, because it just gets worse. He doesn’t really squeeze, but his tendrils and arms get so tangled with Affogato that it’s going to be a chore to get up again.
There is a returned tension when Affogato’s hands reach lower on his back. He doesn’t mind, of course, since it’s his love, but… ]
Careful. Sensitive… [ How useful it is to be able to “speak” to Affogato without pulling away. Still, though, had he forgotten?? ]
I love you, too, my Affogato. I hope you never forget.
[ His voice is soft. Oh no, he hasn't forgotten. He wants to remind Mizuki, as thoroughly as those teeth in his shoulder are reminding him, how desperately he's loved. Wanted. Needed. How Affogato wants to wear him, take him into himself, make him the heart that beats in his chest, and then shove himself into Mizuki's in turn. ]
Do you want my fingers away?
[ Consent, always. The affirmation of love in his head makes him hum soft and sweet in Mizuki's ear, his fingers curling gently. ]
I will never forget. You are seared into my very self. I am who I am today because of you, after all.
[ Mizuki pulls his lips away from Affogato's skin with a gentle kiss against skin that isn't quite as freshly wounded, then licks away the blood from his lips so he can gently press his forehead to Affogato's. ]
You can keep them there. [ He just doesn't want to get too riled is all. No matter how much he loves Affogato and considers himself to be all of his, there's boundaries that Mizuki is aware of. ]
Ah, I didn't have anything to do with your change, Affogato... You've always been so kind and caring toward me. I didn't make you that way or anything.
[ And those boundaries Affogato is giving permission to cross, with his fingers deliberately digging into the stingers, his thumbs rubbing lightly around the base. And he snorts softly, as elegantly as one can do a snort, his expression crinkling into an amused look as he plants little kisses against one cheek, then the other. ]
Wrong. Without you, I would not be here. I would not truly know what love is, what it felt like. I would not be repentant over my past mistakes, I would not be trying to better myself.
[ He moves his hands from the stingers to bring them up to cup Mizuki's face, fingers sliding along his jaw as his thumbs rub his cheeks, his voice dropping. ]
Because you make me want to be a better person, my little love.
[ ohh, his love is so cute. That snort, his expression, the almost playful away he teases Mizuki’s tendrils — Mizuki is incredibly smitten. He bites back a little hum at the feeling. ]
I feel you’re still giving me too much credit. You’ve always been wonderful — if I were eloquent at all with words, I’m sure I could write a novel about all the things there is to love about you.
But… I’m so happy with you. I always have been, but… it’s different. Before, I just thought myself as your follower, and I wasn’t unhappy or anything, but I don’t think that’s what I really wanted?
Maybe I’m not making sense. [ He reaches his own hands to settle over Affogato’s when they’re on his cheeks, with Mizuki’s tendrils practically squishing the two of them together. ] It’s now more I want to be with you forever. If I could stitch our hearts together so we’d always be together, or if I made a home inside your chest~.
And… I’d never give you enough food to make you Seaborn or anything, but it makes me real happy when you eat my meals. Like I’ll always be with you.
[ Oh his little love says the sweetest things, letting himself be squished in as he drags his gifted snake-like dragon tail up in turn. Begins to slowly wrap it around Mizuki, coils twisting in slow loops. Not tight enough to hurt, but definitely tight enough to squeeze gently. ]
My sweet little Mizuki~ With every bite you give me, you sink deeper into me, and [ A little chuckle] with every bit.
[ He drops his voice and pushes their faces together, lips brushing as he speaks, voice lowering to a whisper so it's only for Mizuki's ears. Like Rolipo or Sharkitty might hear them or something. ]
I will eat everything you give me, because you become me and I become you. Soon our hearts will be stitched as once. No one will know where you or I begin. You will be in my skin, my bones, the lungs I drag air with and the heart that brings me life.
[ He drags his nails lightly over Mizuki's cheek, a soft tender stroke to go with his words. ]
[ There’s a very sweet and gentle laugh — silent, of course, as all Mizuki’s sounds are, but the motion and the broken breaths make the intent clear. He moves one hand to hold Affogato’s own there against his cheek, nuzzling against it and even pressing a small kiss into his palm. ]
Forever, my Affogato.
[ A few stingers wrap around Affogato’s new tail, tracing the scales and delicately tangling with it. ]
You always look so lovely, but I think this suits you best. Stuck with me, with that pretty, pretty fresh mark. I do request… if it’s okay… could you not let Dark Cacao put any on you?
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He does pretty immediately wake up when he hears Affogato's voice. Despite the haze and grogginess of waking up, there's still a delight to hearing his beloved. A sleepy, yet cheerful "Affogato~!" will be heard in his head, and moments later he'll even pull himself from the bed-couch to embrace his love. ]
What is it?
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Ungrateful. Undeserving. ]
I'm sorry I woke you. I can wait until later if you desire more sleep. But I made a promise to you, and I intend to keep it, so we must speak in the future.
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No, I'm alright. I've slept most of today, anyway. I've just been tired, for some reason...
What's wrong, though? Did I do something wrong?
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It is a cruel bitter winter full of omens of suffering. It is no wonder you are tired. I do not even know if the Seaborne stir.
[ And he keeps his own little one inside, wrapped thoroughly in furs to keep it warm, lest the cold creep in.
At those words he hesitates, his gaze softening.
Unworthy. ]
That you even think that... no, my little love. I'm afraid I did. I kissed Dark Cacao, and I am afraid my heart longs to do so again.
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He doesn't mention this, though. Rather, he just nods.
...
On Affogato's confession, Mizuki doesn't really seem like he's absorbing it. Not at first, anyway. He supposes, maybe, he's not surprised? Hurt. Hurt, for sure. Especially after confiding in him the relationship he's had with Dark Cacao makes Mizuki jealous, and the assurance that he "couldn't make Affogato happy". Mizuki doesn't look angry, truly, but he does bristle a bit, anyway.
Affogato won't hear anything for a moment, simply just taking this time to mull this over. When he finally speaks, he'll feel Mizuki's fingers hook into his clothes. ]
Did he do something to you?
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And pauses to his words, thinking that over.
Did he? Cacao is well aware of the line they drew between each other. Is well aware of his alternate selfs desires and the memories that he kept. And yet chose to step over the line, chose to push into Affogato's life again, dig his fingers into his desires and pull them up taut.
He sighs and rests his forehead on Mizuki's. But did he do something? He's only ever going to be truthful with Mizuki. ]
I truly do not know. On the beach as we watched over the eggs, I gained the memories of another version of myself. One where we had shared love together. I learned what it was like to have him, and upon returning to myself the memories lingered. I avoided him for as long as I could until he invited me to the Sunrise Ceremony, to sort my thoughts and feelings back out. It is something we do in our home for the New Years.
[ He moves his hands to find Mizuki's tendrils, taking hold of them so they curl around them. ]
He approached me at the end, said he desired me and has for some time and that's when I kissed him. But I don't know if I truly desire him in return or love him, or am simply swept up in the idea of it.
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And they're, you know. Not great! But, also... ]
...Does he make you happy?
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I don't know.
[ His voice is soft and it feels like such a sidestepping answer, but it's the truth. He frowns and plays with Mizuki's tentacles, enjoying the tangle around his hands. ]
I truly do not know. You are the first one to have truly made me happy in my entire life. No one has made me so such as you. Yet even I can admit my... experiences until you have not been the best. I do not truly know what does or does not make me happy. Can he make me happy? I do not know.
[ He untangles one hand from Mizuki's tentacles to bring it up, slide his nails gently across Mizuki's cheek. And it's not a jab or anything, but genuine question. ]
Did Elsword make you happy? The same as I do?
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"The same"... no. But I would not say it's any more or less, either. Just different. But he does make me happy, yes. I've never had a doubt about that. It's the reason we got together to begin with - he cares for me and my happiness above most things.
Much like with you, though. You care about my happiness. You were there for me when I got back from the Garden and made me feel loved even if you had accidentally caused me pain. And... um, I don't know how to word this a little more delicately, I'm sorry... but... can you say the same for Dark Cacao?
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And he already knows Cacao can't care for him above all others, but can he care for him equally? He promised he can, otherwise he wouldn't have offered. Does he make him feel loved, even when he hurts? He can't hold the past against him. It was a dark time for them both. He sighs against Mizuki's mouth, rests their faces together. ]
Remember, there is no need to be 'delicate' with me, my little love. As for your question...
[ Quiet as he ponders. ]
I think I can, yes. But most importantly, I worry for you. Your mark is on my skin, and I do not want you to be hurt.
[ Can he give Mizuki the same amount of love he gives Cacao? ... Could he even possibly give Cacao the same amount of love he gives Mizuki, truthfully. ]
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... [ He curls a bit and presses his head into Affogato's chest instead. ]
And... I would be lying if I said I wasn't also insanely jealous about the thought of you both being together. It's not a competition and I know you love me and you've done so much to prove that, but there's still this voice in the back of my head that says you both have more history and what if you realize I'm not good enough or what if I'm not giving you enough love and aren't you supposed to be mine and...
I know I said I'd work on it, but it's still so hard to silence those thoughts.
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[ Yet Affogato thinks of Cacao planting himself as the Therapy Office to protect him in case anyone wanted vengeance for Mizuki. Of protecting him on the beach. Of his forgiveness for hurting Pure Vanilla and the others.
He wraps his arms tighter as Mizuki curls up, tucking him in and under the blankets a bit more. His heart aches and he softly drops kisses onto his head. ]
And I admit, I would be insanely jealous if Elsword returned, and desired you in his arms once again. I would worry and wonder the same.
[ He would want to bite and claw, and scream and wail. But - did he not just tell Cacao that Suri's behavior between Beiwe and Ourania was obsession then, and not love? He reaches up to tangle his hands into Mizuki's hair. ]
Yet, despite it, I know I could never deny you that love. If that is what you truly wanted, both of us, I would understand. Your teeth are under my skin, your breathing fills my lungs, how could I not know you love me?
[ He gently tugs to tilt his head up, his expression soft. ]
But I will not ask you to do the same. If you wish me all to yourself, then you have me all to yourself. You only need to say it.
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But it isn’t fair, is it? To expect something like that of Affogato and to receive the opposite treatment. He could never. After all, Affogato does deserve all the love. He’s just… he’s just……… ]
I’m scared. I’m scared you’ll go home with him after all of this, and I’ll be here without you.
[ He knows Elsword is going home. And he knows… realistically, if Affogato wanted, it isn’t like he could stop him from going home, either. He knows they’ve got lives back home and that they weren’t meant to be here at the Grove like this and meant to live their own lives and such, but… it’s hard to think eventually he has to let go. He doesn’t want to. He’s incredibly clingy. ]
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[ Well that's an easy thing to answer as he presses his mouth to Mizuki's forehead in a soft little kiss. He can allay this fear. ]
I am never leaving here, unless it is to go with you to your home.
[ He gently strokes his thumbs down Mizuki's face to his chin, tilting his head back with them so he can kiss him soft and sweet. ]
I vowed that to you, and I will not break that. If you remain here, I will remain. If you return to your home, I shall follow. There is nothing for me back at my home, but everything for me here.
[ Even if Cacao goes, the rest of the world is against him. He would be seen as a deserter by the Cacao Kingdom - even with a pardon - and seen as a deserter by Dark Enchantresses group. No. He will stay wrapped around Mizuki, able to kiss him every day for the rest of their lives. Or, his own. ]
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I... I want you to be happy. [ Why did it have to be Dark Cacao, though!! ] I don't think I'll be... not jealous. But... if you're okay to be lenient with me about that... I can work on it, I think.
I love you so much, you know? I'll always be yours.
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[ He smiles and rests their foreheads together to nuzzle their noses gently, kisses him again but with a little more bite to it. A little more possessiveness. ]
As I love you, and will always be yours.
[ He pulls back just enough to reach up and move his hair aside, move the collar of his clothes down. Bare the spot between neck and shoulder where Mizuki's teeth have left their scars. ]
Do not make me beg~
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And there's also the many holes he continues to leave in Affogato that make him so happy to see every time. ]
I would never make you beg. Especially not with something like this.
[ He's more than happy to. In fact, he'd been holding himself back from doing so, thus the invitation is essentially freeing Mizuki's chains. He wastes absolutely no time to move his lips down to Affogato's shoulders, and with one sweet kiss against his skin, he chases it with a sharp bite, those razors he calls teeth burying into him for the umpteenth time.
All the while, Mizuki's tendrils anchor themselves to Affogato's limbs, tracing little hearts against him, as he usually does. ]
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[ It's most definitely not a pained noise, as Mizuki sinks his teeth in. It's stopped being painful to him a while ago. Instead it's almost pleasurable now, the burn and sink of those sharp little teeth, marking up his usually so-well-kept skin all over again.
And then he laughs, a little breathless. ]
Always my eager little love~
[ He wants to dig his nails into Mizuki and carve him up with love, reaching down instead to the lower part of his back, digging his fingers into the stingers. Nails scratch just a little as his voice drops into a low murmur. ]
My Mizuki. As I am your Affogato.
[ Other's may share in them, Mizuki can love Elsword and visa versa, but he's his anyways. His his his. ]
I love you.
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There is a returned tension when Affogato’s hands reach lower on his back. He doesn’t mind, of course, since it’s his love, but… ]
Careful. Sensitive… [ How useful it is to be able to “speak” to Affogato without pulling away. Still, though, had he forgotten?? ]
I love you, too, my Affogato. I hope you never forget.
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[ His voice is soft. Oh no, he hasn't forgotten. He wants to remind Mizuki, as thoroughly as those teeth in his shoulder are reminding him, how desperately he's loved. Wanted. Needed. How Affogato wants to wear him, take him into himself, make him the heart that beats in his chest, and then shove himself into Mizuki's in turn. ]
Do you want my fingers away?
[ Consent, always. The affirmation of love in his head makes him hum soft and sweet in Mizuki's ear, his fingers curling gently. ]
I will never forget. You are seared into my very self. I am who I am today because of you, after all.
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You can keep them there. [ He just doesn't want to get too riled is all. No matter how much he loves Affogato and considers himself to be all of his, there's boundaries that Mizuki is aware of. ]
Ah, I didn't have anything to do with your change, Affogato... You've always been so kind and caring toward me. I didn't make you that way or anything.
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Wrong. Without you, I would not be here. I would not truly know what love is, what it felt like. I would not be repentant over my past mistakes, I would not be trying to better myself.
[ He moves his hands from the stingers to bring them up to cup Mizuki's face, fingers sliding along his jaw as his thumbs rub his cheeks, his voice dropping. ]
Because you make me want to be a better person, my little love.
cw: yandere shit, sorry Tal—
I feel you’re still giving me too much credit. You’ve always been wonderful — if I were eloquent at all with words, I’m sure I could write a novel about all the things there is to love about you.
But… I’m so happy with you. I always have been, but… it’s different. Before, I just thought myself as your follower, and I wasn’t unhappy or anything, but I don’t think that’s what I really wanted?
Maybe I’m not making sense. [ He reaches his own hands to settle over Affogato’s when they’re on his cheeks, with Mizuki’s tendrils practically squishing the two of them together. ] It’s now more I want to be with you forever. If I could stitch our hearts together so we’d always be together, or if I made a home inside your chest~.
And… I’d never give you enough food to make you Seaborn or anything, but it makes me real happy when you eat my meals. Like I’ll always be with you.
liKE HE'S NOT YANDERE TOO
My sweet little Mizuki~ With every bite you give me, you sink deeper into me, and [ A little chuckle] with every bit.
[ He drops his voice and pushes their faces together, lips brushing as he speaks, voice lowering to a whisper so it's only for Mizuki's ears. Like Rolipo or Sharkitty might hear them or something. ]
I will eat everything you give me, because you become me and I become you. Soon our hearts will be stitched as once. No one will know where you or I begin. You will be in my skin, my bones, the lungs I drag air with and the heart that brings me life.
[ He drags his nails lightly over Mizuki's cheek, a soft tender stroke to go with his words. ]
As I so dearly want to be yours. Yours forever.
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Forever, my Affogato.
[ A few stingers wrap around Affogato’s new tail, tracing the scales and delicately tangling with it. ]
You always look so lovely, but I think this suits you best. Stuck with me, with that pretty, pretty fresh mark. I do request… if it’s okay… could you not let Dark Cacao put any on you?
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