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Yep. Aaaand before anythin' else?

(she holds up her hands and even does a spin for him.)

— Lettin' ya I'm not armed and I'm here only to say somethin' and then I'm gone.

(jinx then folds her arms across her chest and wishes she can lean on something - so she just shifts her weight from one foot to the other.)

It's gonna be quick, don't worry.

Edited 2022-06-04 21:44 (UTC)

[ … Huh. Now he feels bad for being so defensive right out the gate. He lets go of the door and stands in front of her, mimicking her movements somewhat as he lulls himself side to side. It's mostly the nerves for him, though, especially evident by the way he's staring at her, but never really meeting her gaze.

(He does have to lean back just a little when she spins, just so her braids don't bop him in the face.) ]

'M all ears, then. What's up?

(she takes a breath, so far so good.)

Right. So... regarding, you-know-who, you can have him. I'm sick of dealing with him, I'm sick of tryin' to be buddy-buddy with him 'cuz it's apparently the — (using finger air quotes) "fair" thing to do. All it does it make my life more a livin' hell and I got enough goin' on.

(jinx gives out a small shrug.)

'Sides, thinkin' about it? ... He's not a great guy. People say I'm crazy or psychotic and maybe they're right. But 'least I don't go in people's heads or screw with people's feelings and mess 'em all up. That's a new level of cruel that even I wouldn't stoop that low in. And I've learned he's hurt other people 'sides you and me.

So if you wanna be with a liar who abandons you when you need him the most and leaves you despite givin' him literally all of you and it's still not enough for him...? — Knock yourself out.

[ Mizuki awkwardly tilts his head at "you can have him," as if that was something not… already in the works? Though, he supposes "having Venti" is still incorrect here, too. Not when he so easily slides out of Mizuki's fingers. Perhaps that hypocritical of him to think, when Mizuki himself can practically turn to jelly himself, but… Jinx is absolutely right. He is cruel. And it seems like nothing's ever enough for him. However… ]

I'm sorry... that I made things so complicated suddenly. It wasn't my intention. I had no idea you... as well... [ He bites his lip a moment, trying to find the words. ] I liked you a lot, you know? You were so fun to hang out with when we did.

...

I really didn't want things to turn out like they did.

It's...

(honestly, she isn't sure whose at fault at this point. mizuki for meddling in? venti for showering her with so much affection to make her assume he wanted their friendship to have some intimacy? or maybe it's her fault for opening up to him in the first place when it's suppose to be just her and silco?

or is it possible all three of them played a part of each little fault and it just collided into one big shit show? either way, did it matter? this whole craziness needs to end.)

... It's whatever. I just wanna be happy again. I was fine before all of this. — And the only answer I can come up with to get back to that is to cut him outta of my life. Sucks I can't abandon ship, though.

(a beat.)

But you know him, he'll come buzzin' around my head eventually since I was his — (sarcastically, she lifts up her index to do a circular motion. indicate a fake "woohoo".) — "first friend ever on the ship". So. Can't really control him comin' around. But just know it's not me when that happens.

[ An outside party looking in would absolutely shove a good chunk of the blame on Venti. Especially so, since Mizuki and Jinx are still both young and trying to figure themselves out, let alone their feelings. Venti's a literal god and is somehow the biggest fuck up on the ship. Not that Mizuki would ever personally think this. Contrarily, he thinks most of the blame is on himself. So when Jinx utters the line "I just want to be happy again," it feels a bit like a stab in the chest. His face contorts a bit, and he instinctively reaches out to grab both of her hands. ]

I never blamed you for what happened! [ !!! ] I-I know I'm a jealous person, and I'm working on that, but I never blamed you. I even tried to convince him that I was okay if he wanted to pick you over me because I know I-... I'm a lot to deal with. [ Beat. ] But I didn't want to stop being your friend. A-and I didn't want you to be hurt because of me, either.

(ah, this went to an awkward turn, suddenly. but despite him grabbing onto her hands, she doesn't pull away. jinx is a little too stun to do that, really.)

I mean I'm sorta a lot to deal with, too. But uh, look. Really. It's fine. — I'm not that easy to get knocked down.

[ Unfortunately for Jinx, Mizuki is just constantly this touchy. Which is why he squeezes her hands in some strange form of comfort. ]

But it's not fine. I can tell, your choice of words make that much clear... you know it's fine to not be fine right now, right?

...

I-I appreciate you coming to talk to me, though. Thank you.

(jinx isn't going to address the first statement he says but she will move on to acknowledge the other half. she really should pry her hands away from his grip but even if she tried, he is squeezing them so tugging away will make this whole ordeal a little more awkward than it is.)

... Well since I'm ending things with him, I just... figured the first step was to talk to you about it.

(she wonders if any the pilties would snicker at her if they ever saw "the loose cannon" standing here and making p r o g r e s s. ha. ha.)

[ "Ending things," huh? Mizuki doesn't have any room to try and defend Venti here, unfortunately. Maybe partially because of his own bitter feelings for him right now? Or maybe because he doesn't really know what went on between Jinx and him? After all, he didn't find out that Jinx was the other person until much later than Jinx did. ]

I... I don't know if it is. I mean, I was just sort of... an unfortunate obstacle, is all.

Edited 2022-06-05 02:51 (UTC)

Don't beat yourself up over it. What's done is done. Can't reaaaally go back and fix all this gunk up.

[ No, but he wishes he could. He lets go of Jinx here to give her a hug, though. ]

... If it makes you feel better, I haven't been having an easy time with him, either.

(o-oh. hugging, alright. not at all getting a hug from a person she hated for several weeks is super awkward??? jinx stands there frozen before awkwardly raising up an arm to pat his back.)

Y-Yeah, I can imagine. If he's been givin' me hell, he's probably been doin' the same to you. It's just... who he is, y'know? A guy that lures you in with sweet cutesy words and once ya get your guard down, he does somethin' stupid and you're falling face first in the dirt. — And then on top of it, not even offerin' a hand to help you get up.

Edited (I'LL GET IT I SWEAR OMG.) 2022-06-05 03:35 (UTC)

[ Well, Mizuki's harbored no ill-will for her, and still considers her a friend, acutally! So hugs are just inevitable, really. He holds it for just a moment before finally pulling away with his hands still on her shoulders. ]

He... he's trying to get better about it.

...

I'm sorry that... he's made you feel like that. May I ask a favor, though? He's kind of going through something right now... I know that's not your problem or anything, and you can still go talk to him if you need to do this now, but... if not... could you maybe give it a day or two before you tell him?

Spare me. I don't wanna hear about him tryin' to do anything or what he's going through. I don't care and I know he's not gonna change. I've came to terms with that.

(but for the favor though, jinx averts her eyes away from him with her lips thinning for a moment.)

I...I dunno. I was thinkin' just dip and he'll eventually get the message. He gets to run away whenever shit gets hard so... give a taste of his own medicine on how that feels to get ditched by people.

Edited 2022-06-05 15:59 (UTC)

[ A hesitant nod. Once again, Venti has gotten a lot better about running away from his problems. He’s even talked to Mizuki about a lot of them and made so, so much progress. But there’s still a lot more to make and he is hurting. He doesn’t need to imagine how Jinx feels. ]

I… I understand if you don’t want to see me anymore, either, ‘cause of him, but if it’s all the same to you… can we still be friends?

I...dunno about that either, yet. I tried to take a friend's advice to work it out with Venti and keep being his friend but...

(a pause before sighing.)

It's just too damn hard. I've been tryin' to rush all of this 'cuz I want it all to be over with. But... guess this is somethin' you can't go fast with? Which sucks 'cuz I'm use to the fast and crazy stuff.

Guess what I'm sayin' is I need time.

[ There's a tiny, guilty look at the ground as he pulls his hands away from her. ]

That's alright. And if the answer ends up being no, that's okay, too. But, um... whatever the case is... I know you'll find that happiness again soon enough.

Yeah, thanks.

(a brief pause -- thinking she should just nothing else but decides to add:)

... And good luck with the fairy.

('you're gonna need it.')

[ Had Jinx come at some point before finding out what Venti did, he may very well have happily said he didn't need it. Maybe even fought to say that all he really cares about is that Venti is happy. And for a while, this was true. Mizuki's own happiness didn't really matter to him, because he always equated it to other people's happiness. But that broken trust like that? Hm…

He nods. ]

See you, Blinky.

(she flashes him a small smile before turning on her kneel. and as she walks off, she hopes up a peace sign as her way of saying, "see ya" back. thus the two of them are now on their separate ways but surely, they will meet up again. who knows? maybe the bard will do yet another dumbass thing that will bring them together again for another chat.)

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