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mooninthewater) wrote2023-08-16 12:10 pm
mooninthewater) wrote2023-08-16 12:10 pm
[ She is still wibbly but... ]
T-that is amazing... It doesn't hurt you in anyway...?
[ She comes from people who use every part of a body!!! Because its important!! They burn their dead so they don't become undead and spread their ashes into the winds!! She totally supports you. ]
T-that is amazing... It doesn't hurt you in anyway...?
[ She comes from people who use every part of a body!!! Because its important!! They burn their dead so they don't become undead and spread their ashes into the winds!! She totally supports you. ]
[ Caoimhe hears the whispers - b u t . . . At this point with how insane this realm is, she doesn't think too much about it, holding a weariness of walking into the night. Yet sad and lonely - desperate even. To search for him, and find him she does.
At least - we think so, she rounds the corner to where the Fish Tank in Elswords house is and looks around to find him. ]
At least - we think so, she rounds the corner to where the Fish Tank in Elswords house is and looks around to find him. ]
[ Crying, Caoimhe, don't support this. ]
Mmmh, well... [ He considers this for a moment. It wouldn't hurt to tell her some form of the truth, he thinks. "Hurts," no, but "alters"... sometimes.
...
He decides against telling her. ]
Not that I can think of, no. Does that make it a little better? I'll still eat more privately, of course.
Mmmh, well... [ He considers this for a moment. It wouldn't hurt to tell her some form of the truth, he thinks. "Hurts," no, but "alters"... sometimes.
...
He decides against telling her. ]
Not that I can think of, no. Does that make it a little better? I'll still eat more privately, of course.
[ Mizuki is in the fish tank. He's actually still trying to "talk" to Caoimhe, surprised when he notices the blurry hints of red through the glass and water of the tank. He'll quickly scramble to get out, dripping water onto the floor in the process. Uh - he'll clean that up later, promise! ]
Caoimhe! You stopped talking! I thought you were ignoring me!!
[ "Moon" jellyfish is a misdirection, he's actually the very rare "sunshine" jellyfish. ]
Caoimhe! You stopped talking! I thought you were ignoring me!!
[ "Moon" jellyfish is a misdirection, he's actually the very rare "sunshine" jellyfish. ]
[ All she heard was: i cleanse the souls of the dying when i eat them. ]
... I... I don't think I can watch - ultimately, the body of a living being is so holy - in itself. Even if they... Die.. ... To watch it desecrated in that way is still hurtful despite your ability...
[ Though the more she thinks about it... ]
... Does that mean... Youre a God?
[ I cant remember if she asked this before - Caoimhe would remember BUT ME THE MUN? GON GAGA. ]
... I... I don't think I can watch - ultimately, the body of a living being is so holy - in itself. Even if they... Die.. ... To watch it desecrated in that way is still hurtful despite your ability...
[ Though the more she thinks about it... ]
... Does that mean... Youre a God?
[ I cant remember if she asked this before - Caoimhe would remember BUT ME THE MUN? GON GAGA. ]
[ It's hard to stay so sad when Mizuki is full of life!! Despite the evident aura she gives, and the seemingly dejected look she has. It softens the moment she sees Mizuki climb out of his fish tank.
It almost makes her want to diminish her issues into nothingness, the complicity of it should not be brought and put on others' shoulders. She already bothered Heimr, the Shopkeeper and upset him... She should not continue that train of action. ]
I... I am sorry... The spell I use can only send back and forth about twenty-five words. Did I bother your time in the waters?
It almost makes her want to diminish her issues into nothingness, the complicity of it should not be brought and put on others' shoulders. She already bothered Heimr, the Shopkeeper and upset him... She should not continue that train of action. ]
I... I am sorry... The spell I use can only send back and forth about twenty-five words. Did I bother your time in the waters?
I understand. I don't want you to be uncomfortable. I'm real sorry I scared you before, I hope you'll forgive me for that.
[ Sounds like she already has, of course, but he doesn't want to assume anything. Maybe she came to apologize and also be like "but fuck you for doing that you little bitch" or something like that.
Her next question stumps him a little bit, though. The answer should be "Of course not". And, to some extent, it is, to Mizuki. (But there's a lot of intricacies to We Many, isn't there?) No, no, he can't talk about that. Ah, he's better off just avoiding answering altogether. He doesn't want to continue lying to Caoimhe. ]
What's a god to you, Caoimhe?
[ Sounds like she already has, of course, but he doesn't want to assume anything. Maybe she came to apologize and also be like "but fuck you for doing that you little bitch" or something like that.
Her next question stumps him a little bit, though. The answer should be "Of course not". And, to some extent, it is, to Mizuki. (But there's a lot of intricacies to We Many, isn't there?) No, no, he can't talk about that. Ah, he's better off just avoiding answering altogether. He doesn't want to continue lying to Caoimhe. ]
What's a god to you, Caoimhe?
No, of course not. You're never a bother~!
[ He bounds over to her for a hug. A wet one, sorry- ]
Is there something on your mind? I'm sorry I'm not easier to track down, ehe...
[ He bounds over to her for a hug. A wet one, sorry- ]
Is there something on your mind? I'm sorry I'm not easier to track down, ehe...
..Sometimes, we scare each other. [ Her arms shift gently around his shoulders. Leaning into give him a hug before pulling back again, and letting the two of them comfortably drift a part. ] Sometimes, we get angry at one another... And that's okay, because we all have feelings and... We can come together, to talk about them or overcome things that may not.. Make sense to us?
[ At least in regards to this moment. A pause, as she is hesitant to answer his question. ]
... Do you not..? [ Mizuki may not give his feelings away physically, but in the intricacies of his own personality. Caoimhe finds perhaps her question weighed uncomfortably on his shoulders. ] Do you not, like that question?
[ At least in regards to this moment. A pause, as she is hesitant to answer his question. ]
... Do you not..? [ Mizuki may not give his feelings away physically, but in the intricacies of his own personality. Caoimhe finds perhaps her question weighed uncomfortably on his shoulders. ] Do you not, like that question?
You're very kind, Caoimhe. [ He's going to thumb at some of the tearstains on her cheeks. ] Next time, you needn't cry for me, though. I promise, no matter what, I'll always consider you my friend, okay? Worrying otherwise will just make you emotionally exhausted!
[ And he's going to hold her hands now. He's very touchy - if he can't keep hugging, then this works for him. ]
I wouldn't say that, no. It's just certainly a weird question to ask, isn't it~? I mean, depending on what your definition of "godhood" is, maybe we all are? We can't technically "die", we have different abilities, we're from different worlds, we've been reincarnated as entirely new people - there's so much there that could be traits of godhood.
[ And he's going to hold her hands now. He's very touchy - if he can't keep hugging, then this works for him. ]
I wouldn't say that, no. It's just certainly a weird question to ask, isn't it~? I mean, depending on what your definition of "godhood" is, maybe we all are? We can't technically "die", we have different abilities, we're from different worlds, we've been reincarnated as entirely new people - there's so much there that could be traits of godhood.
... Thank you Mizuki. [ Truly a kind friend, what more could she have asked for? The gentleness of his touch, wiping away the tears makes her feel validated - here, grounded, alive, appreciated, loved. A tenderness she wasn't inherently always afforded, especially with how easily she could cry.
But Gods..? ]
No, [ She says, kindly but there is a push of certainty to her voice now. ] A God is nothing like us.. Yet you are right, we can become Gods. I have heard legends of those who even Ao could not overlook and granted them ascension... But...
[ As she speaks trying to recall memories and thinks hard on it, the lyre at her side begins to glitten slightly. Exuding an aura of magic itself. ]
Gods have these things called Portfolios.. Yes, without them, the Gods would not gain power from our prayers or respect. Instead, they would diminish in power, and likely disappear into the aetherial planes... I suppose that does not answer your question.
[ She had looked away in thought but returned her eyes towards the other more endearingly once more. ]
To me, the Gods whether they are foul-mannered or gracious. Are beings who live beyond our understanding, they are not meant to be understood but all the same - worshiped and learned from. They are our creators and may not understand us as mortals, but rely on us all the same as we too look to them for answers.
We are the essence of what it means to be synergetic, a foul God should be stopped but to destroyed!?!? Outright, would only mean the demise of Mortalkind.
[ She shakes her head frowning, ]
I merely mean, to myself. Gods are above me, and I can only exist below them ultimately.
But Gods..? ]
No, [ She says, kindly but there is a push of certainty to her voice now. ] A God is nothing like us.. Yet you are right, we can become Gods. I have heard legends of those who even Ao could not overlook and granted them ascension... But...
[ As she speaks trying to recall memories and thinks hard on it, the lyre at her side begins to glitten slightly. Exuding an aura of magic itself. ]
Gods have these things called Portfolios.. Yes, without them, the Gods would not gain power from our prayers or respect. Instead, they would diminish in power, and likely disappear into the aetherial planes... I suppose that does not answer your question.
[ She had looked away in thought but returned her eyes towards the other more endearingly once more. ]
To me, the Gods whether they are foul-mannered or gracious. Are beings who live beyond our understanding, they are not meant to be understood but all the same - worshiped and learned from. They are our creators and may not understand us as mortals, but rely on us all the same as we too look to them for answers.
We are the essence of what it means to be synergetic, a foul God should be stopped but to destroyed!?!? Outright, would only mean the demise of Mortalkind.
[ She shakes her head frowning, ]
I merely mean, to myself. Gods are above me, and I can only exist below them ultimately.
[ He pulls away, tilting his head for a very "?????" reaction. Expressions have never been his strong suit, but... she seems tense? Hm. ]
...Is everything okay?
...Is everything okay?
Hmm~ hmmmm!!! What a very specific explanation. But I don't think even Gods can be bound by definitions, can they?
[ Happily, he swings their hands together, and sways a little in his spot as well. Mizuki may have been raisedby cultists in a Church, but he's really not a religious person. He believes in what the Arbor stands for, and what it once provided and did, but there are some... complicated feelings there. There's some complicated feelings for We Many. There's a lot of... jumbled, complicated... stuff. ]
If the Gods created creatures, then are those creatures not also God? They must be pieces of them, at least, surely? I believe there are simply people who earn respect and even prayer, but those people are not necessarily good, or even gods, right? So, then, where is the divide?
If Gods are simply something we cannot understand, then are many, many Gods that differ between people, even. For instance, I don't understand emotions all that well. Does that make it my God~?
[ Before she has the chance to answer, Mizuki lets go of one of her hands and pulls the other up, guiding her into a little twirl before giving a bright, sunny laugh. ] I don't think anyone can truly define divinity.
[ Happily, he swings their hands together, and sways a little in his spot as well. Mizuki may have been raised
If the Gods created creatures, then are those creatures not also God? They must be pieces of them, at least, surely? I believe there are simply people who earn respect and even prayer, but those people are not necessarily good, or even gods, right? So, then, where is the divide?
If Gods are simply something we cannot understand, then are many, many Gods that differ between people, even. For instance, I don't understand emotions all that well. Does that make it my God~?
[ Before she has the chance to answer, Mizuki lets go of one of her hands and pulls the other up, guiding her into a little twirl before giving a bright, sunny laugh. ] I don't think anyone can truly define divinity.
[ She is all wet and with a quick movement of her hands she uses prestidigitation to make herself dry again. She does not offer to Mizuki because she knows him being wet is important! ]
I do not want to bother you with my thoughts, I already caused a great bit of grief to Heimr when I just spoke to him now... I just...
[ A Pause. ]
I missed the ocean... And... I did not know where to go to, but to you.
I do not want to bother you with my thoughts, I already caused a great bit of grief to Heimr when I just spoke to him now... I just...
[ A Pause. ]
I missed the ocean... And... I did not know where to go to, but to you.
Oh you know this..? [ Caoimhe's face lights up as their hands swing about, the lyre at her side still ebbing a hue of magic to it. ] Yes... Yes you are right - Ao took themself and placed a part of them into each one of us, that is why...
[ As swift as she seemed to smile, she frowns gently. ]
That is why the Beast, takes our souls and consumes it - making certain we are never reborn again. He wants the small parts of Ao within us, so that he can become stronger then he is... [ Yes she will talk about the facts of her world like it is nothing, she has done this in the campaign its a thing. ]
But ah -
[ she twirls a bit mystified, did he want to dance? Caoimhe had not danced for some time, and the movement of her twirl made her feel balanced in some way. When she enters back before him. She looks at either side of him and gently comes close and moves a bit as if to dance. ]
That is what I mean... But we, as living beings... We are defined, and part of that is by the Gods in some way...
While the Gods are divided mainly by the power in their hands, but also the laws of the cosmos that we know nothing of... And maybe just, will never understand... Yes... I think that's okay...
I also think that. [ A small smile. ] If Mizuki is a God, he would be a Great God. A kindest one, yes! I would hope your people will dance to the ocean waves, sing your songs, and represent the strength that is in your heart.
[ As swift as she seemed to smile, she frowns gently. ]
That is why the Beast, takes our souls and consumes it - making certain we are never reborn again. He wants the small parts of Ao within us, so that he can become stronger then he is... [ Yes she will talk about the facts of her world like it is nothing, she has done this in the campaign its a thing. ]
But ah -
[ she twirls a bit mystified, did he want to dance? Caoimhe had not danced for some time, and the movement of her twirl made her feel balanced in some way. When she enters back before him. She looks at either side of him and gently comes close and moves a bit as if to dance. ]
That is what I mean... But we, as living beings... We are defined, and part of that is by the Gods in some way...
While the Gods are divided mainly by the power in their hands, but also the laws of the cosmos that we know nothing of... And maybe just, will never understand... Yes... I think that's okay...
I also think that. [ A small smile. ] If Mizuki is a God, he would be a Great God. A kindest one, yes! I would hope your people will dance to the ocean waves, sing your songs, and represent the strength that is in your heart.
Hm, I would think the river would provide you more solace than I would, if it's the ocean you seek. Buuuuut I'm also really good for hugs and stuff if you need that, too.
You wouldn't bother me with your thoughts, Caoimhe. I much prefer people being straightforward with me, since I'm not too good at reading people.
You wouldn't bother me with your thoughts, Caoimhe. I much prefer people being straightforward with me, since I'm not too good at reading people.
Even so, when I thought of it - it was you who came to mind first. [ She admits a bit sheepishly, hands rubbing along either side of her forearms. ] ... I see...
Even still... It isn't right to just, speak my pains freely.. [ Locks of hair shuffle about, ] Not that I do not want to.
[ She looks up, staring towards him a bit more clearly. ]
. . . Remember... You had told me, that I am a Good Person?
Even still... It isn't right to just, speak my pains freely.. [ Locks of hair shuffle about, ] Not that I do not want to.
[ She looks up, staring towards him a bit more clearly. ]
. . . Remember... You had told me, that I am a Good Person?
Caoimhe, you and I are friends. You can talk about whatever ails you with me.
[ ??? He's fretting a little bit over her. Should they sit? They should sit. He's going to gently coax her to Elsword's couch so they can take a seat. He'll hold her hands once they do, trying to be comforting. ]
I do. You are.
[ ??? He's fretting a little bit over her. Should they sit? They should sit. He's going to gently coax her to Elsword's couch so they can take a seat. He'll hold her hands once they do, trying to be comforting. ]
I do. You are.
[ Most of that flew over his head, sorry, Caoimhe. ]
I do not believe that we are defined, actually. Not when we have so many things that make us unique, if we are truly pieces of a whole.
[ Mizuki will absolutely start to sway with Caoimhe, a songless little dance to keep up the energy. To keep Caoimhe happy. ]
Ehehe, you think so~? It's too bad, then, that I'm not a God. I don't even fit your definition a little bit. I'm just Mizuki.
I do not believe that we are defined, actually. Not when we have so many things that make us unique, if we are truly pieces of a whole.
[ Mizuki will absolutely start to sway with Caoimhe, a songless little dance to keep up the energy. To keep Caoimhe happy. ]
Ehehe, you think so~? It's too bad, then, that I'm not a God. I don't even fit your definition a little bit. I'm just Mizuki.
[ Oh that was very good! She sits on the couch and finds it easier to... Well breathe, and her nerves begin to settle just a bit. ]
I think about that day a lot... Everything we talked about... I... I try really hard to be myself and to be what it means to be good to me... But... I think.... I think it is only making other people unhappy, and... Maybe misunderstand me? Or... That I will make it worse?
[ A pause and... She reflects the earnestly says. ]
... I wanted to go back to the ocean, because... If that is where I came from, then I want to return home. [ She gets quieter, the comfort of sitting and the safety of being in this place with her friend Mizuki beside her. Knowing too, that Elsword was not too far away. She opens up a bit more... ] ... I don't think I belong anywhere... Not even here... So I want to go back home... I want to go back to the ocean, where I came from, and where I belong... Since... The way that I am - the way that I am, is not... The right way to be?
I think about that day a lot... Everything we talked about... I... I try really hard to be myself and to be what it means to be good to me... But... I think.... I think it is only making other people unhappy, and... Maybe misunderstand me? Or... That I will make it worse?
[ A pause and... She reflects the earnestly says. ]
... I wanted to go back to the ocean, because... If that is where I came from, then I want to return home. [ She gets quieter, the comfort of sitting and the safety of being in this place with her friend Mizuki beside her. Knowing too, that Elsword was not too far away. She opens up a bit more... ] ... I don't think I belong anywhere... Not even here... So I want to go back home... I want to go back to the ocean, where I came from, and where I belong... Since... The way that I am - the way that I am, is not... The right way to be?
Edited 2023-09-27 05:43 (UTC)
[ LMAO thats totally fine. She is with the help of Mizuki, actually remembering things from the her that lived farther than she came from. Though she may not be able to retain that Caoimhe's ability or power... She is remembering some of those memories. He is helping, without realizing it. ]
Mm! That's okay - I-I am most endeared by it... [ It is a quiet gentle dance, Caoimhe feels the moment deeply. ] I love who you are, simply as you are, that is why I was so sad... To have felt scared of you before.
I felt that I betrayed you, Mizuki... Despite how much I love you. [ She leans in a bit closer, at least despite the tears that still seemed to sit on her cheeks from moments before. Caoimhe is able to smile truly for the other. ] Thank you for understanding me, and being so kind... Always... I am happy to have met you, am happy that Mizuki is just Mizuki.
Mm! That's okay - I-I am most endeared by it... [ It is a quiet gentle dance, Caoimhe feels the moment deeply. ] I love who you are, simply as you are, that is why I was so sad... To have felt scared of you before.
I felt that I betrayed you, Mizuki... Despite how much I love you. [ She leans in a bit closer, at least despite the tears that still seemed to sit on her cheeks from moments before. Caoimhe is able to smile truly for the other. ] Thank you for understanding me, and being so kind... Always... I am happy to have met you, am happy that Mizuki is just Mizuki.
[ If Mizuki has to fetch Elsword for an impromptu cuddle pile, he will. For right now, though, he listens. There's a brief moment of worry that he's made Caoimhe force herself to doing things she didn't want to, but the way she said "to be myself" generally implies it's the stuff that comes naturally to her. "Trying really hard" is kind of a contradiction, then, isn't it? Unless... she often pretends to be something she's not? How incredibly relatable. ]
Hm, if I can give you my thoughts... [ They won't be very good, since Mizuki also is misunderstood and makes things worse, so- ] You're not going to make everyone happy, even if you do everything right. You are a very good person, and I think whatever misunderstandings stem from the fact people know this about you and want to make sure that goodness isn't snuffed out.
After all, there's a lot of really good people, but that doesn't mean they have means to protect themselves. Especially somewhere so incredibly dangerous, I'm sure you're just bound to worry people...
[ There's a gentle squeeze of her hands. ]
Is that what home is to you? Do you believe being there would fix things? Do you think that your point of view should not be valued? What is the right way to be? If you feel you do not belong anywhere, what is the harm in staying here, anyway?
...
I know it's a lot to think about, but... I think you belong.
Hm, if I can give you my thoughts... [ They won't be very good, since Mizuki also is misunderstood and makes things worse, so- ] You're not going to make everyone happy, even if you do everything right. You are a very good person, and I think whatever misunderstandings stem from the fact people know this about you and want to make sure that goodness isn't snuffed out.
After all, there's a lot of really good people, but that doesn't mean they have means to protect themselves. Especially somewhere so incredibly dangerous, I'm sure you're just bound to worry people...
[ There's a gentle squeeze of her hands. ]
Is that what home is to you? Do you believe being there would fix things? Do you think that your point of view should not be valued? What is the right way to be? If you feel you do not belong anywhere, what is the harm in staying here, anyway?
...
I know it's a lot to think about, but... I think you belong.
[ Mizuki's movements are fluid and very loose. Almost... impossible, for someone without the structure of a jellyfish. But he keeps dancing! It's fun, and he doesn't want to see her cry, and it's certainly a nice contrast from this topic. ]
Mmh, I'm glad Caoimhe is Caoimhe, too. I think... [ A rumbling in his head, the whispers of the collective, the thoughts of We Many, the voice he can never discern from his own. ] I think the Gods are overrated, anyway.
Mmh, I'm glad Caoimhe is Caoimhe, too. I think... [ A rumbling in his head, the whispers of the collective, the thoughts of We Many, the voice he can never discern from his own. ] I think the Gods are overrated, anyway.
[ Actually Mizuki that is sound advice, and very smart point. Caoimhe herself is not use to the idea that people would care about her in that way - which was a dynamic issue. Her people faulted her in failing them, and although still accounted her among them. Made it evident in their actions that she was on her own, when it came to care and a quality of life.
Thinking that people are so concerned about her - that they are fearful of how she is being taken advantage of by others?
She genuinely, cannot fathom that idea.
It's too bad this came too late - if anything it's almost narratively hilarious. ]
... I did not realize. . . [ A pause as she drifts into thought but the hand squeeze brings her in. Eyes flicker upwards back to him, and the oceans within them seem to subside from the initial flurry of storms that bellowed within.
'What is the harm in staying here anyway?'
If Caoimhe is so adamant about believing everyone belongs, why does she not add herself into the picture?. Her life answers that question, but she is incapable of answering it right now in her mind for Mizuki. Instead, she simply thinks - ]
I am still trying to understand...
[ I think you belong. She smiles, and deep down she feels herself validated. Truly, the ocean welcomes her. ]
Thank you.
[ She squeezes his hands back. ]
Thinking that people are so concerned about her - that they are fearful of how she is being taken advantage of by others?
She genuinely, cannot fathom that idea.
It's too bad this came too late - if anything it's almost narratively hilarious. ]
... I did not realize. . . [ A pause as she drifts into thought but the hand squeeze brings her in. Eyes flicker upwards back to him, and the oceans within them seem to subside from the initial flurry of storms that bellowed within.
'What is the harm in staying here anyway?'
If Caoimhe is so adamant about believing everyone belongs, why does she not add herself into the picture?. Her life answers that question, but she is incapable of answering it right now in her mind for Mizuki. Instead, she simply thinks - ]
I am still trying to understand...
[ I think you belong. She smiles, and deep down she feels herself validated. Truly, the ocean welcomes her. ]
Thank you.
[ She squeezes his hands back. ]
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