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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-25 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ When the other hugs her, she leans into it more and holds far tighter than he had. ]

... I know... I'm sorry... [ She felt like a bad friend, to have thought that Mizuki would ever do something like that. Unable to accept in that moment, something about him that scared her - it was wrong, of her to not accept him as he is. Especially in a moment, that Mizuki himself was clearly helping them all with. ]

B-But... I don't know why - I don't understand why you eat others like that... [ But Gods consume people, Devils eat souls, and living beings eat animals - it's all the same ultimately. ] ... But, I know Mizuki only does things because he cares about all of us... So I know what you were doing was to help us, and it's okay... [ Her locks of hair seem to drown the other's face within it. Her voice gets a bit quieter, and she holds him still without letting him go. ] S-Sometimes we hurt each other... But... I-It's okay, that's why... That's why I came here to talk to you because even if you didn't realize it... Even if you didn't understand - I still h-hurt you Mizuki, and I wanted you to know... I am sorry... I-I will do better.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ She listens to his warm voice, and is glad that he did not find her a terrible friend. Pulling back away from him, she looks to find his face. Attempting to rub the tears from her eyes. ] W-were you H-hungry...? [ I mean why else do you eat? ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
.. That must be horrible to feel so hungry and be unable to eat... [ She gives the other a quaint frown, concerned over their wellbeing completely. ]

You can... Eat evil..? And... Share goodness...? [ Never in her life had she ever heard about such an ability - it is so unique and intricate... sadly they never got to the eldritch abominations stuff, so Caoimhe knows NOTHING about that mess. ]

If you consume them.. Then... When their soul is freed - they no longer are tainted by the darkness of evil?

[ Her eyes are blinking and she seems to try to put thoughts together. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She is still wibbly but... ]

T-that is amazing... It doesn't hurt you in anyway...?

[ She comes from people who use every part of a body!!! Because its important!! They burn their dead so they don't become undead and spread their ashes into the winds!! She totally supports you. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ All she heard was: i cleanse the souls of the dying when i eat them. ]

... I... I don't think I can watch - ultimately, the body of a living being is so holy - in itself. Even if they... Die.. ... To watch it desecrated in that way is still hurtful despite your ability...

[ Though the more she thinks about it... ]

... Does that mean... Youre a God?

[ I cant remember if she asked this before - Caoimhe would remember BUT ME THE MUN? GON GAGA. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
..Sometimes, we scare each other. [ Her arms shift gently around his shoulders. Leaning into give him a hug before pulling back again, and letting the two of them comfortably drift a part. ] Sometimes, we get angry at one another... And that's okay, because we all have feelings and... We can come together, to talk about them or overcome things that may not.. Make sense to us?

[ At least in regards to this moment. A pause, as she is hesitant to answer his question. ]

... Do you not..? [ Mizuki may not give his feelings away physically, but in the intricacies of his own personality. Caoimhe finds perhaps her question weighed uncomfortably on his shoulders. ] Do you not, like that question?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
... Thank you Mizuki. [ Truly a kind friend, what more could she have asked for? The gentleness of his touch, wiping away the tears makes her feel validated - here, grounded, alive, appreciated, loved. A tenderness she wasn't inherently always afforded, especially with how easily she could cry.

But Gods..? ]


No, [ She says, kindly but there is a push of certainty to her voice now. ] A God is nothing like us.. Yet you are right, we can become Gods. I have heard legends of those who even Ao could not overlook and granted them ascension... But...

[ As she speaks trying to recall memories and thinks hard on it, the lyre at her side begins to glitten slightly. Exuding an aura of magic itself. ]

Gods have these things called Portfolios.. Yes, without them, the Gods would not gain power from our prayers or respect. Instead, they would diminish in power, and likely disappear into the aetherial planes... I suppose that does not answer your question.

[ She had looked away in thought but returned her eyes towards the other more endearingly once more. ]

To me, the Gods whether they are foul-mannered or gracious. Are beings who live beyond our understanding, they are not meant to be understood but all the same - worshiped and learned from. They are our creators and may not understand us as mortals, but rely on us all the same as we too look to them for answers.

We are the essence of what it means to be synergetic, a foul God should be stopped but to destroyed!?!? Outright, would only mean the demise of Mortalkind.

[ She shakes her head frowning, ]

I merely mean, to myself. Gods are above me, and I can only exist below them ultimately.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-26 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh you know this..? [ Caoimhe's face lights up as their hands swing about, the lyre at her side still ebbing a hue of magic to it. ] Yes... Yes you are right - Ao took themself and placed a part of them into each one of us, that is why...

[ As swift as she seemed to smile, she frowns gently. ]

That is why the Beast, takes our souls and consumes it - making certain we are never reborn again. He wants the small parts of Ao within us, so that he can become stronger then he is... [ Yes she will talk about the facts of her world like it is nothing, she has done this in the campaign its a thing. ]

But ah -

[ she twirls a bit mystified, did he want to dance? Caoimhe had not danced for some time, and the movement of her twirl made her feel balanced in some way. When she enters back before him. She looks at either side of him and gently comes close and moves a bit as if to dance. ]

That is what I mean... But we, as living beings... We are defined, and part of that is by the Gods in some way...

While the Gods are divided mainly by the power in their hands, but also the laws of the cosmos that we know nothing of... And maybe just, will never understand... Yes... I think that's okay...

I also think that. [ A small smile. ] If Mizuki is a God, he would be a Great God. A kindest one, yes! I would hope your people will dance to the ocean waves, sing your songs, and represent the strength that is in your heart.
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ LMAO thats totally fine. She is with the help of Mizuki, actually remembering things from the her that lived farther than she came from. Though she may not be able to retain that Caoimhe's ability or power... She is remembering some of those memories. He is helping, without realizing it. ]

Mm! That's okay - I-I am most endeared by it... [ It is a quiet gentle dance, Caoimhe feels the moment deeply. ] I love who you are, simply as you are, that is why I was so sad... To have felt scared of you before.

I felt that I betrayed you, Mizuki... Despite how much I love you. [ She leans in a bit closer, at least despite the tears that still seemed to sit on her cheeks from moments before. Caoimhe is able to smile truly for the other. ] Thank you for understanding me, and being so kind... Always... I am happy to have met you, am happy that Mizuki is just Mizuki.

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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm... [ She is grateful. ] I love the Gods. [ Caoimhe says gently, finding herself fascinated by his fluid movements. She almost starts to purposely try to move them so she can see them for herself. ] But I love all living things the most.

[ Somewhere her mother's own heart cries, knowing her daughter is so much like her. ]
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Caoimhe cants her head, a bit perturbed. We? She feels she made him sad... After a moment, the two continue and then she softly says. ]

... Mizuki, I.. I wanted to show you something... I am not sure how the spell will work, but... I would be comfortable if you were here with me while I cast it... Do you want to see?
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[personal profile] amhran 2023-09-27 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Um... Is there somewhere with more open space... Could we go outside for a bit..? [ Caoimhe stops their little dance and squeezes his hands, to move a way a bit. Pulling out her new lyre and holding it in each of her hands. ]

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