harmacy: and the hands that god gave you (I-0105)

[personal profile] harmacy 2023-12-30 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
This isn't about Mizuki! You—!

[Anger gives way to fluster, as much as he tries not to let it show... but really, it's not about Mizuki. It's about how little Elsword seems to care about kissing whoever he pleases. What does that make Add? If he's not special, if it really is just how Elsword treats everyone... what's he supposed to feel, if Elsword could live without him? If he could one day move on?

His eye flicks over to Mizuki... and he hisses out a sigh, folding his arms tightly to his chest. Dynamo hums loudly to combat the blowing cold.

I'll fix it, followed by a mental map of exactly which corner of which drawer he keeps the first aid supplies. Traces of something bitter leak through, emotions he can't quite strip away. Not completely.]


... Is it because I'm too busy? You don't see me enough? If it's too difficult to come to the lab—if you said something before I could've made different plans, but I can still make adjustments. Am I not doing something correctly? Just tell me what it is, and I'll fix it.

[he's not good enough, that must be why Elsword sought out affection from Mizuki... but he can still fix it. he can be better.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-30 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[Head in fucking hands...]

Add, I'm not... a needy person. I'm pretty sure, anyway. [Usually you can just set Elsword down and let him be around people, and that's good enough for him. He's like a chinchilla.] If you're busy, you're busy, but that doesn't mean I love you less. I bring you food and try to drag you home when you and Mr. Gnosis are sleeping on the desks in the lab...

[Chinhands, with his... uh... good hand...? "Good"?]

...I wouldn't do that if I didn't care.

[...]

I'm not trying to... betray you or anything like that. Add— you're good enough for me. You don't have to change or do anything differently. Keep doing what you're doing, it's my fault for being impulsive. I thought you'd be okay with...

[Gestures in a circle with his hand. You know.]
harmacy: the sickness you foster (I-0137)

[personal profile] harmacy 2023-12-30 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
[You're good enough for me, he says, but Add can't be satisfied with such a simple answer. Humans are no different from machines, programming and circuits replaced with chemicals and flesh—everything can be calculated, predicted, cause and effect, why would impulses be any different? Craving a food because your body can sense its deficiencies, is that not the same as seeking out affection? Is it something he misunderstood? Is it because he never officially agreed that they were dating?

Everything tangles in his chest, trying to grasp what words to say, how to make Elsword do what he wants... but he's also multitasking, and suddenly that secondary task is a lot more important he agreed to what now

There is an intensity behind Add's gaze, staring down Elsword like he just said something completely insane (he did, kind of). Dynamo draws in around him, crackling sparks. It's... less threatening, somehow. More defensive. Nervous.

... Elsword didn't know what he was saying yes to, though, and that's so like him to agree blindly without understanding the situation, but... another moment comes to mind, I wish you could feel how I felt about you.

there is a feeling of hhrrrhghgh in the depths of the hivemind]


Let me see your shoulder. [briskly clearing the gap from the bed to the window, don't change the subject? sorry, that was only for Elsword, Add is allowed to change the subject, he's going to heal this first. Mizuki pass him the fucking bandages]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-30 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
[Elsword about to say something like "I'm sorry" and then Add flips the topic and he just... he has learnt by now to shut his fucking mouth before he wrecks shit, so yeah, here's his shoulder. The bite has gone through the fabric of his shirt, and he's no longer bleeding, but it obviously hasn't scabbed over. One sharp movement is going to make it bleed all over again.

There is also blood on his lips from where he was licking it out of Mizuki's mouth like a fucking freak, don't... don't worry about that, okay.]


It's not that bad. It's like the last time I got bitten.

[Man who gets bitten on the daily by his freak-ass friend group: it's fine they're not actually rabid]
harmacy: as they lose their sight (I-0009)

[personal profile] harmacy 2023-12-30 06:55 am (UTC)(link)
[he was so close to ignoring his problems and complaining about Elsword's weird bitewound magnetism instead and then Mizuki says That

Add sputters like an old motor. There are alarms blaring in his mind, and over the mindlink there is a resounding WHY ARE YOU TELLING HIM THAT? This is NOT part of the plan! This isn't part of any plan!! What the fuck!! He wasn't ready for this!!!

In his panic he spills half the bottle of disinfectant onto Elsword's wound. It is for sure disinfected now, at least.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2023-12-30 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
[The disinfectant gets dunked on him and Elsword hisses out in pain, brief, before his eye settles back on Mizuki. Then they look to Add, then to Mizuki again, and he nods once.]

Yeah. Then I could keep tabs on you guys when you go into the woods next. [Normal behaviour.] And then Add can know that I think he's perfect the way he is, and Mizuki can know I don't think he's a monster like Irene does. So yeah.

I want to feel the stuff that makes you guys happy, too.

[He has half an idea what he's agreeing to here, but it caught Add off-guard... has Mizuki already offered for Add to join We Many, maybe? That would make sense, since hiveminds are supposed to add more... minds... to the hive. Or something like that.]
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2024-01-01 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, pretty much.

[Elsword please understand what you're asking for challenge.]

As much as it sucked to feel only people's bad emotions that one month, [whatever month that was, it was one of them, Elsword has lost track,] I was... okay with it, in a weird way. It let me know you were safe, and I was able to find Mizuki when he was injured. Stuff like that.

[It goes back to Elsword's need to Constantly protect other people, even if it'll be actively detrimental to his wellbeing. How is he supposed to jump in front of a bullet if he can't find y'all? Checkmate, atheists.]
Edited (spelled fucking atheists wrong apparently) 2024-01-01 08:38 (UTC)
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[personal profile] harmacy 2024-01-02 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
It's not that simple. Do you ever think before speaking?

[He'd fallen quiet, between the shock and the disbelief, but he regains his composure enough to interject. Is this exchange, is Elsword's consent supposed to make him happy? Can it be that easy? All he had to do was ask?

Of course not. He sighs, exasperated, and roughly pulls down Elsword's shirt to access the shoulder. This is faster (and less distracting) than making his strip. He is going to treat this bitewound, thanks...]


Ignoring the risks that come with invasive surgery, complications and rejection by the body, having to adapt to a new method of communication that may be uncomfortable or difficult to use... modifications of this nature are permanent, I would hope you'd ask more questions before impulsively agreeing to something you don't understand. There won't be any "changing your mind" later.

[There's more. He knows there's more, but he still hesitates, staring down as he wraps the wound... he's thought about this one. There are a few different approaches he can take, he doesn't have to say anything at all, but is it better if he can explain it away with a good excuse? That leaves less risk in the long term, right? He doesn't have to lie about it. He can be more honest about why it has to stay a secret... he may even be able to test it openly. But there's always a risk. If Elsword gets suspicious, disagrees, blurts it out to someone by mistake...

he shouldn't say it at all. it could be his trump card. something no one could expect, not even the Forest.

... ah, the Forest can hear through him, can't it? maybe... it would even think of this as a mistake. allowing Elsword into their minds, and it by extension...]
harmacy: would we still be fine? (I-0162)

[personal profile] harmacy 2024-01-02 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[His hand wanders, abandoning the carefully-wound bandages to trace up Elsword's neck, over the black vines, stopping as his fingertips cradle the edges of the petals blooming from his empty socket... a beautiful, disgusting parasite. Is it listening now? Watching? Oblivious to their plans? Does it think it still has the upper hand?

Slowly, his mouth widens to a crooked smile, worries giving way to sharp focus.

A surprise. Yes, this can be the surprise. A gift of total control, wrested away from something vile and unworthy...]


... electromagnetic frequency is bad for plants. I wonder... will it wilt if I make you mine?
Edited 2024-01-02 01:28 (UTC)
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[personal profile] simplicitas 2024-01-02 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[Luckily for Mizuki, he should be able to find something to patch the window up with. Otherwise they can Move Bedrooms and cuddle up over there.

Elsword has not yet made this suggestion, because he's too busy having a fucking Moment over Add, thanks. Somewhere in the back of his throat is a "No, I don't think before speaking, we've gone over this", because Add so often throws that into his face and at this point Elsword isn't sure how to drive that home. "I already have God and the Forest arguing in my head, what's another thing", he wants to say. "Didn't you say you were going to help cure everything wrong with me?" he's about to ask in a tone that might be sassy if he weren't so unemotional all the time.

Nope, no, Add goes for the fucking kill of will it make you mine, the one thing that gets Elsword's monkey-brain revving its engines. He freezes at the touch, noting with some amount of discomfort that the flower petals have sensation when something like this absolutely shouldn't, but... woof. Okay. Be normal, buddy, you can do this.]


Y... yeah? [failed step one] I hope so. I'd rather have you in my head than two supernatural entities arguing all the time.

[lol lmao]

If you could shut them up... if you could fix me, I'd owe you more than just a couple kisses.

["if you cure me i'll give you head" said boy who was already going to be doing that]